help a sister out

Help a sista out! I am trying to sale my dorm room so I can move back home! 

Some people have contacted me about it but they seem very fishy..tehe

If you know of any good places where i can put up an add or know someone who wants to move in I would lovee to know. 

It's on campus and I can already tell you you'll have great roomates! It is $795 / Semester and you can make monthly payments! For more info visit this website.. http://dixie.edu/housing/nisson.php 

Contact me at : 801-400-9304 or email at desir0596@gmail.com

xoxo

sunday feliz

 

I feel like every time I express my love about the savior and everything he has done for me it is the same thing. but I promise you it is different every time and the feelings only get more and more stronger, exciting and happy ..more more more! I absolutely love it.

 

I made a decision over the summer..one I was sure of. I knew I wanted it..I wanted it more than anything! I cried out unto the lord praying for help and guidance as I went forward with the decision I had just made. I let the people closest to me know of my choice and the reasoning behind it. It was scary in a sort of happy way. I did my best everyday not knowing that slowly but surely another choice (path) would be presented to me in short time. choices, oh boy oh boy..there is opposition in all things as we know, even in the choices we make. They can either be good or bad.

this new choice was presented to me so beautifully (if that even makes any sense..)IN THAT MOMENT. I had a whole new eye, a blind one. My whole goal I was pushing for all summer was gone in two seconds. I lost it. I didn't realize until just today that satan had been working on me all summer and I was pulled in so carefully and strategically didn't even notice.

 

I've been a little lost lately. It happens to all of us. wondering what in the poo we are going to do with our lives, if we are walking the right path, doing the right things etc etc. Sometimes when we get lost we distance ourselves from the things we love most, at least I know I do. Praying, reading my scriptures, doing small acts of kindness every day went from a typical everyday thing to do to something that I just couldn't do. I could open my scriptures but my mind would wander off and get distracted. Not until a couple weeks ago, I headed up north (aka home) for a weekend and spent time with a close friend who reminded me in their own genuine way who I was and am. Two friends gave me a blessing. Simple but very powerful. I felt a power so strongly in my heart I knew, I knew with my whole heart that beats now..that I was loved. I was loved more than I could ever comprehend. I knew I could still follow him even if I had messed up. I knew I was still welcome with welcome arms. Every time I fall I get up stronger.

 

I am here today telling you that I've never been so close to god than now. My heart and soul is so sure of it. I am so moved by his teachings that there is no possible way this church isn't true..because IT IS SO TRUE. It's the surest thing I know. I've never felt so happy about something.

xoxo

 

happy sunday

home

holy guacamole am I excited to move back home. WAIT WHAT? yes, the news is out to those of you who don't know..i am coming home. well, tonight was spent attempting to empty my closet filled with dirty and clean clothes(yes, dirty and clean because sometimes I get lazy and just..ya i'm sure you can relate) because this weekend, my roommate decided to head north back home which leaves the room to myself! OH DO I LIVE FOR THESE DAYS. you honestly don't know how amazing it is to have a room to yourself until you live with someone else. Let's just say all my clothes are clean and put away as if cinderellas mice and birds came to clean up after me. SUPA CLEAN. either you got that or you didn't..i tried k? just laugh.

honestly, tonight I wanted it to be me myself and I. BUT that sure didn't happen. I got a few knocks at my door and felt like the biggest brat on the planet because I sort of just kicked them out. whoops. #sorrynotsorry. unfortunately, I couldn't keep up being the brat I was and let a friend in. not a bad idea. I GUESSSS..the word is out that i'm not "worth it" because smoking weed, drinking and having sex isn't my scene. To be completely honest, at first I was kind of hurt but then I realized holy .. that's the best compliment. I AM WORTH IT BECAUSE OF THAT. shut up dumb Dixie boys. guys, please just hear me out and let me vent for like three seconds (k maybe more but..still) ALL ANYONE WANTS TO DO HERE IS DRINK DRUGS AND HAVE SEX! AND YES THIS ALL HAS TO BE IN CAPS SO YOU KNOW HOW REAL I AM BEING. ok, venting sesh is over. *takes a few deep breaths* breathe des breathe. "nobody can make you feel inferior unless you let them" -Eleanor Roosevelt

wait. hold up puhhhleeease! back to the topic about me moving home..Jesus please (kinda, sort of, not begging) let me pack up all my best friends I have met here in my suitcase and let them live with me 5ever. seriously though. why do the cons have to over weigh the pros on this decision of me moving. holy patootie. *sheds a tear or two* why does life do this to us? perty please explain.
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guys, my best friend turned in his mission papers yesterday!  AH this is legit happening. please help me. feeling so happy for him right now it is so unreal. THE CHURCH IS SO TRUE. I've seen the lords hand bless me in so many ways this past week. #blessed. yeah, I've thrown out two hashtags in this post and I don't even mind. the haters can't seeeeee. (woah, i'm getting a little too dorky) *takes a second to giggle because of how excited I am to have the room to myself* tehe. so when my friend came over to visit today we had this huge long heart to heart about relationships. oh boy 0-100 real quick. I loved what he said though..let me attempt to repeat what he said..shoot i'm gunna  butcher it. basically he told me when you are in a relationship with someone take the time to step back with them and say are they helping me become a better person? where is this going and where will this lead me? I really took deep thought into that and looked around at my friends thinking in my head those questions bud said. which ones were really actually helping me and which friends am I helping or should be helping? kind of really got deep for a sec.

anyhoo. I'll end this post with something true, genuine and something that will warm your heart either now or later in the future. Yes, it is a scripture because what else would it be? Isaiah 49:15-16 || I will not forget you. I have written you on the palms of my hands.

xoxo

Me

 

 

 

At this very moment.. It's Halloween. The one Holiday you can run around scaring the shiz out of people. Please excuse my French. Right now I am getting the "shiz" scared out of. Someone is literally shaking my door handle and foolish me opened the door to see no one there..but the scary part is it KEEPS HAPPENING! SOS. on the real though because my roommate is not here to be scared with me so this is serious. Tehe. Jk i'll be safe. but out of 10 how scared I am right now is a real 100.

So...basically I was going to write this deep well thought out post and my whole train of thought left me because someone decided it'd be funny to scare me. not cool..not cool at all.

Right now I would LOVE to spill my guts out about the power of prayer! HOLY GUACAMOLE. where do I even begin? Let me just say I can testify that Heavenly Father hears your prayers. promise. I can even pinky promise you. Even with the smallest problems I am struggling with I know that I can get on my knees with a humble heart and turn to my father in heaven and pour out my soul. And he truly listens to everything you have to say. this past month I've been struggling with so many things..trying to keep up living as a college student. I started seeing so many little changes throughout my day. Seeing his hand, leading me and guiding me. AND I LOVE IT. One of my closest friends is getting ready to turn in his mission papers and I have SO many mixed emotions about it. 1 being IM SO SO SO SO PROUD of him! I can not believe it. It's a good feeling. I'm also so excited for him. All the things he's going to experience. I can not wait to hear about them. But then I get super sad thinking I he won't be a text away. BUT I KNOW I KNOW IT'S ALL FOR THE GOOD. I'm proud of him. truly. He's been such an example to me lately. I look up to him in so many ways.

 

 

Me + Keian Mcgeeee Oct. 2014

 

Anyhoo. Maybe one night I'll get the time to actually sit down and write my guts out but tonight..is just not the night. But for now..xoxo.

 

I've been deprived of writing lately and I absolutely hate it. My mind has been brimming with abounding thoughts and when I finally get the time to sit down to write..my mind is bare.
College for me has been a love hate thing. I live in a whole different environment from where I grew up..and like I said it's a love hate thing. I've never wanted to live and grow closer to Christ than now AND I have also never had so much temptation thrown at me. I sat down on my college sized twin bed to array all the thoughts in my head. I was so defeated on WHY there is so much evil around me? Why I can't seem to find someone who strives to live the same standards I do. there was no answer. I couldn't come up with anything. I cried out in my heart "why? why?" silly right? Later that week I attended church, It was fast and testimony meeting (my fav). A young woman walked up to the pulpit..with uneasiness in her voice words began to flow out of her mouth. She shared a story about when she was a freshman and how she realized that coming here to this college was hard for her. She struggled with many temptations and hardships but then she began to turn it around..she said "It was a test to prove myself." and right there I knew God had answered my cry "why? why?"

This weekend I was blessed to attend General Conference! (You're jealous, I know.unless you're Odalys who is my suitemate that just informed me she wasn't jealous. tehe) The feeling of the spirit overwhelmed me there. Absolute beauty in everything. I always love the feeling that takes over whenever the spirit is present..it's greater than any feeling. The words that were spoken were amazing..I long for that ability to speak such empowering words. I always leave knowing I am a child of God. Those few words hit me so strong because it's true. I love it. Thomas S Monson // be a little better, a little kinder, show respect, extend our concern, try to do the right things, be a light to the world...Simple but SO GOOD. love love love love.

If someone knows where I can get these adorable plants please spill the beans. I want *heart eyes* *about to change subjects super quick*

I've learned to grow the love for being alone. Don't get me wrong I revel in other peoples company but being alone can be fun and in college it's totally OK if you're walking, sitting or heck even talking alone. I am perfectly content and satisfied with the smallest of things.

Beware, not in any sort of Halloween sense since it is October. But more of the fact that this post will be filled with random late night thoughts.

First ill start out with a few IPhone friendly picture I took this week for the fun of it.

Selfie. Because we all need a little selfies in our lives sometimes am I right?

A picture I took in my lovely small dorm bathroom

The two cute bracelets on my wrist are my absolute favorite..One from my mom

that I received on Christmas and the other..tbh i'm not really sure where I got it but it is adorable.

heheheheh. this is legit the lamest blog I hav EVER written. My B.

keep it real nuggs.

Mahalo