I feel like every time I express my love about the savior and everything he has done for me it is the same thing. but I promise you it is different every time and the feelings only get more and more stronger, exciting and happy ..more more more! I absolutely love it.
I made a decision over the summer..one I was sure of. I knew I wanted it..I wanted it more than anything! I cried out unto the lord praying for help and guidance as I went forward with the decision I had just made. I let the people closest to me know of my choice and the reasoning behind it. It was scary in a sort of happy way. I did my best everyday not knowing that slowly but surely another choice (path) would be presented to me in short time. choices, oh boy oh boy..there is opposition in all things as we know, even in the choices we make. They can either be good or bad.
this new choice was presented to me so beautifully (if that even makes any sense..)IN THAT MOMENT. I had a whole new eye, a blind one. My whole goal I was pushing for all summer was gone in two seconds. I lost it. I didn't realize until just today that satan had been working on me all summer and I was pulled in so carefully and strategically didn't even notice.
I've been a little lost lately. It happens to all of us. wondering what in the poo we are going to do with our lives, if we are walking the right path, doing the right things etc etc. Sometimes when we get lost we distance ourselves from the things we love most, at least I know I do. Praying, reading my scriptures, doing small acts of kindness every day went from a typical everyday thing to do to something that I just couldn't do. I could open my scriptures but my mind would wander off and get distracted. Not until a couple weeks ago, I headed up north (aka home) for a weekend and spent time with a close friend who reminded me in their own genuine way who I was and am. Two friends gave me a blessing. Simple but very powerful. I felt a power so strongly in my heart I knew, I knew with my whole heart that beats now..that I was loved. I was loved more than I could ever comprehend. I knew I could still follow him even if I had messed up. I knew I was still welcome with welcome arms. Every time I fall I get up stronger.
I am here today telling you that I've never been so close to god than now. My heart and soul is so sure of it. I am so moved by his teachings that there is no possible way this church isn't true..because IT IS SO TRUE. It's the surest thing I know. I've never felt so happy about something.
xoxo
happy sunday