I never know how to start these things off. Do I start it out with an amazing blow your mind inspirational quote? A question that will boggle your mind and leave you finding the answer for weeks upon weeks? A joke that will leave you peeing your new chair because you laughed so hard?
Or do I just simply start out with my story.
I guess you could say I've found a stress reliever. Watching My Strange Addiction
Literally Laughing my head off. I'm weird..but I'm glad to know I'm not the oddest ball out there.
Well right here and right now I'm about to vent..because this is my online journal.
So at this point if you don't like to hear anything complainy.. I suggest you click that red little box on the corner of your screen.
I'm at the point in my life where.. i'm just lost. Lost lost lost.
The person I've always longed for to lift me up, be there to hug me, listen, and to be told I love you from is constantly putting me down.
How do I live with someone that calls me a slut..
How do I live with someone who makes me feel worthless
now im not saying shes never said I love you..because she has. she cares about me.. deep down.. I know it. I just wish she'd show it.
Now im not typing this to change anything. Its just my journal.
I'm just lost in thought. Confused. Frustrated.
I like a guy.
Amazing. That's what id call him.
I don't know why this guy walked into my life but he did.
He's obviously here for a reason. For good or for better.
I'm bittersweet happy around him.
But i'm stuck with a mom who doesn't seem to want ANY guy in my life.
as if its illegal. come on!! Im 17..
I dont know everything. Dont know a lot of things.. but you got to let me try to learn things on my own..
Give me advise, ill take it.. but dont stop me.
I DONT want to play any romeo and juliet games. Like seriously im far far far from wanting to do that.
but how do I stay away from someone whose impacted my life.
this is where it gets weird if any of my lovely family is reading this. Just close your eyes:)
jk. enjoy this teenage moment with me
His hands adhered my face
Holding it like it was the most valuable thing he'd ever held.
His fingers ran down through my hair and stayed where the crevasse of my neck and head connect
Butterflies.
He looked into my boring brown eyes as if they were filled with numerous amount of color.
He looked as if he had so much to say but couldn't
Perfect.
There was no kiss to be met.
Except for the magic of silence and thought
Happy
Right
A moment i've never experienced more perfect
Alright. enough with being corny. haha but honestly. what a story.
I'm so glad to have my little sister in my life.
I got home in such a sad mood. Only waiting to the minute i walked into my house to ball my eyes out
But she came instantly to the door and gave me the warmest hug.
I always enjoy coming to my dads vecause of the love that is shared.
Once I walk through that door i know ill be greeted with warm hugs and " I missed you!"
She was there to wipe away the tear inside of me.
Love that lil bug.
Ohana.
Stay strong and carry on
Love to all.
xoxo
Desi
Happy birthday to my sweetheart in heaven
Aloha,
Somewhere over the rainbow. Way up high, I wish my little guardian angel a very happy birthday.
My baby brother is nine today. And I still call him my baby brother.
Gosh. Can you just be here Joaquin?
Your song is playing right now. My heart is racing and memories are flooding through my head.
If tears can build a stairway and memories a handrail
I'd walk right up to heaven..And just stinkin bring you home again.
The pain I feel at loosing you will never go away. But knowing that you're in my heart, helps me through each day
When you were here I felt that nothing could go wrong
But you're still my inspiration
And the memories keep me strong
And though my heart is heavy ..
It's also full of love! And that's enough to comfort me .. While you're in heaven, up above
Tiny lil you. I'm talking to you and honestly don't even know if you can read this. But I know you know I love you! And that's all that matters. Happy birthday sweet thing.
Anyhoo chicken poo,
What to say..what to say..
School is officially out {yes, this is your time to jump for joy and scream because you are so happy ..UNLESS !!... You're a Bum..and have already graduated..}
Actually, not gunna lie! But as much as I want school to be over with, I also cannot wait for next year! Senior year. Holy Chet. Dees is beeg.
Excuse me to freak out for a sec..
Ok back. Haha well last night I used Skype and skyped a great friend! Too good! Got to know (t) better and just laugh and cry.
I can't even explain how happy I am. Like literally . No words can explain it.
Maybe I need to see a doctor?
Nehh I'm fine foo. I'm just a happy chug.
Time to listen to the nightly chill tunes on pandora and dream of crazy things.
Yes? Yes.
Goodnight to all. With love. Lots of it
Your friend ,
Desi
17 years young
While the last 60 minutes of my birthday lasts I might as well write a blog post.
Happy birthday to the mistake baby!
I got many birthday wishes and am so berry grateful for them all. Even from a long lost..Barbie boy. Shh cover your Ojos. You never saw that.
Time flies. The countdown starts officially. 365 days until I am 18 and free from living the life of divorced parents.
Honestly . Sometimes I get so frustrated and think "why me? I thought Heavenly Father only gave us challenges we could handle." So I kinda had to talk to myself and say.. Well, I must be able to handle this if I'm given this challenge.
So this simple phrase has stuck with me
~ you will make it because you can do it
I can do this baybeeee!
This birthday has taught me a lot. Family. How important they are to me.
I know I'm that accident baby but.. I'm so happy I'm here! I'm so grateful for everyone I've ever met who has made me stronger, given me hope, held my hand through the toughest times, cried with me or even hurt me
17 years young.
Didn't get to blow out any candles tonight. But I'll tell you what I would have wished for.
To have my lil man {.. Gosh can't even type this without crying..} Joaquin. Lil brother of mine be here to celebrate with me.
So here's the secret candle I blow out now .. & wish To see him in my dreams tonight.
With love.
Big n tuff
(Bless my heart)
- Desiree Jasmin Rogers
Im a girl ready for adventure
I'm a girl ready for adventure. I'm pretty sure I should be a senior and graduating in a few days.. Oh wait no still got ONE more year. And oh how that year will fly!
Honestly.. I've already got my first thing planned for myself after I graduate. Goin on another lil trip to Hawaii. Yes you heard me right. I'm gon get det cash flow n get my lil booty there and guess what?! No one can stop me. Freeeedom! I can smell it already.
2 more days till my lil burfday! The big 17. 17 years young! And then I can officially start the countdown to the day I'm on my own. No more switching houses back and forth. No more, no more and NO more. Can't wait to get rid of dem chains
K why the fuss am I talking like..a gangsta. I got a problem. Help.
Isn't it so neat how people walk into our lives. My aunt lived in Hawaii for a long time and one of my elementary fling boyfriend moved there. So one day, I don't even know how we ended up adding each other on Facebook but I met a guy named Tevin. Never talked to him until 2 months ago because.. He moved to happy valley Utah! And I guess you could say.. Things are going smooth. He and his cousins.. Gee. Such a good time. I don't even know how to explain how I feel . Just.. Happy..! And I'm lovin it!!
Yes yes yes. But I was just thinking to myself.. Would me n him have ever met if my aunt didn't live in Hawaii or if my friend from elementary moved there?
I love having a dad I can just talk to . He listens to everything . I'm SO thankful for that. Gotta love family.
Live the aloha spirit.
Aloha. Mahalo
Xoxo
-this girl Desi
It started with a prayer
Wow on wow on wows! Recently I've had theeee WORST blogs EVER. Apology..
It started with a prayer!
What? you might say. Well I'm here to tell you that my lovely day started with a thoughtful prayer.
My day was amazing pretty much. Most confident ever and unfortunately sick..
After school I layed out in the body tingling warm sun and relaxed while listening to the motion picture soundtrack The Great Gatsby. {yeee-uh.. Get off yo lil booty and getcho self to a theater if you haven't seen it!..seriously.. GO!}
After that I chilled with the funnies! Josh, Angel and Tev. I only named these people because.. I'm pretty sure you'll be hearing more about them later!
Gosh! I was sick to the T but as cool as I am.. I played my sickness off. I can't even explain how fun these Dewey's were! Just random fun things everywhere you could walk!
Tev. Is a dancer , and into cinematography .. Like woah.
We are the same person here..
I like eeeet. I luff eeeet. I wants shum mo of eeet.
Guys! Holddddd uppppp!
I made the dance team for my high school! Me? Say vhaaaa?
I'm verrrryy exited. Dance is just a good time. Yuh get me? Knew it.
Well. C.R. Stupid T's tomorrow. What a killer. School just end. K thanks.
Haha gosh. Live yo life to the fullest!
Maholo nuggs
Yo migo - D
Xoxo
Just a weekend
Where do I begin.
Lets begin with.. I finally met the guy from Hawaii. Wait what? Haha ya I actually haven't mentioned him yet.
Anyhoo, he lived in Hawaii.. Knew my cousins, and my sixth grade boyfriend. So ya. And he's got one of the coolest accents around! Holla
Next I saw THE GREAT GATSBY.
And I've been reading the book and been dying to see it.. So I went. Simple as det
I lovvveeeed it. So many neat things to learn from that book. Here's a few quotes I love from the book. Fitzgerald is just an AMAZING writer!
••"All I kept thinking about, over and over, was 'you can't live forever, you can't live forever"
••“In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I've been turning over in my mind ever since.
"Whenever you feel like criticizing any one," he told me, "just remember that all the people in this world haven't had the advantages that you've had.”
••“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
Optimist.
Well I'm going to start off by saying the Odc and Od3 show was amazing!
Must say I did get my hopes up because someone said {promised} they'd be there and ..they didnt come. If yo gon make a promise.. Keep it. But to those who came..I'm sure you'd agree it was pretty good!
Optimist
Sho. Feelin a little bit hopes brokened I had a sleep ova with muh main homie. And in the morn..PROM! Bless our dates hearts..
Fun.fun.fun.
Played the license plate game on the way up to lagoon and I pretty much won;)
And then we met up with the group. Holy cow! 30 people in le group! Wowza! Should've seen when we tried to take pics! ..what an adventure!
Then after lagoon, my friend and I had to make Boutonnieres because..well..we kinda procrastinated and didn't buy one early enough. {props to Mr. Lawson for actually teaching us something we could use in life} and then got all perty for the dance. The dance was beautiful! Rooftop dance! It was a night/weekend to remember!
Optimist.
Once upon a time.. There was a girl. This girl had just barley started her freshman year. She sat down in her English class nervous for the new beginning. She had just broken up with her eighth grade boyfriend that summer and knew that this year was going to be different..cause, well..she wouldn't have a boyfriend to walk her to class n what not. She was livin as many people know "the single life".
As the bell rang for class to start three other people sat in the desks around her. The group of desks consisted of two girls and two boys. In her head she thought to herself "oh.. I can handle this. These people seem very nice" and then the one that would change her life sat in his seat. Secretly she got very nervous around him because he was one of the cool kids. He would think she was weird. But as the weeks passed on they slowly started small talking. "Hey..do you have a pencil?" Or just a simple "Hey"
Even though he talked to her..she still though that he thought she was the weirdest girl to live. And yuh know..she is. But that didnt change anything. One day passing the halls to go to the next class he walked by and stopped her. She looked at the flimsy paper he gave her and it was an invite to one of his friends party. Woahhh. {She felt cool. Don't tell. That's a secret.} Unfortunately she couldn't ever make it to the party but got his number and they started to text.
To be continued..
Optimist.
Song of the week: Pompeii
Check it out because I just LOVEit.
I love you all. Smile because.. Why not? Be happy. Don't give a shiz about dumb little things and have a good time!
Sweet dreams. Many kisses and one great big hug.
To be honest. I just randomly put optimist everywhere. So take it in and be optimistic
Xoxo.
Sincerely,
Me Desi
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