A girl I've never met has passed away. I've seen her at a dance concert before but I never met her. I was trying to see what was the reason she passed, so I went on to her instagram and saw her blog link. Just curious to know about her, I clicked on it and read her blog. I read the blog she wrote last night..My heart broke into two. I just wanted to bawl my eyes out..because I've been through that heart ache before. When a guy just shatters your heart to pieces and leaves you lying there hopelessly to try to figure out how you're going to put it back together. When you think you'll never be able to walk a day with out him. Wondering if you even cross his mind. I just want to cry. Is that weird? I've never met her..and..I seriously want to cry.
My prayers go out to that beautiful girls family and friends.
Ya, my little heart has been broken by my first true love. I cried almost every night. His words& his actions broke me down,. I never loved soooo much. He was the best thing that had ever happened. Nd now I know why the church says what they say. They are watching out for you. Warning you before you actually get hurt. Ah this girl keeps running through my head and I'm crying now. How someone can be here for a second and gone the next. Never take any moment spent with someone for granted. I love and respect this girl named Sydney. I wish I could have known her!!
A few things from her blog that just got me. Some things I that I've been through and she worded it perfectly "And when he came along, he made me feel special. And beautiful, and loved. I have never felt this from anyone. he was the one. We got through any trial thrown at us, our stupid arguments would always end up in hugging and telling each other we loved each other. There was nothing like us." ...." I was so in love, and trusted that one I loved so much, that they took complete advantage. I almost feel so stupid and ashamed of how dumb I could be. So many people knew, while there I was in the middle of it all, completely clueless. The feeling of hurt has gotten so much worse, I physically hurt. I feel sick to my stomach."
I know this is such a sad entry but... Its sad and I needed to get my emotions out on this. Girls don't EVER let a guy tear you down so badly. You CAN do anything! You may feel alone but you will NEVER be alone. God is always with you and will lead you in every step of your life. You are his child and wants the best for you. So chins up. Be strong and of good courage.
You were never meant to look down. You can do ANYTHING! Let god be your main focus on life. You're loved more than you will ever know!!
I love you all.
Maholo
Until we meet again
Sincerely me Desi.
Please keep the bruning family in your prayers❤
