I choose to be happy

Hi, as many of you know, my name is Desiree Rogers. I'm sixteen years old and I don't have a car. Vhaaaa? Ya you heard me. I don't have a car.
You can feel bad for me, I give you permission. SUCks to SUCk! Nuff said.

Enough with the negativity I tell myself!
I'm thankful for
~The car I don't have, knowing I have healthy legs that I can use to walk
~The arguments, because I live in a county that has freedom of speech
~The girl who sits next to me in class everymorning that chews with her mouth open, because it means I have can hear
~The huge pile of laundry I have to do, because it means that loved ones are near by
~The terrible annoying alarm in the morning, because I know Im alive
~The clothes that fit a bit to small, because it means I have enough to eat everyday
I'm thankful for god and all my blessings.
I'm not going to let anything change my attitude! I'm going to be happy because I choose to! Holla!

Special shout out to my man for giving me the topic for my blog ~not having a car

I CHOOSE to be happy! Nobody can change that. I love God and our savior Jesus Christ! He is the reason I can return to Heavenly Father and my little angel Joaquin up In heaven. My love for him is undescribable. I can not thank him enough.
A kid in my class asked me: why do you believe In that stuff?
I told him.." Because every bit of it is true"
It's sooo true. I can't wait to serve.
Called to serve: Sister Rogers
Then come home, get married and have little kids of my own. I can't wait to walk into the temple and be sealed to my own family.
Ya..I'm a girl! I think of that stuff k?:)
Haha goodnight to all or if you happen to be reading this in the morning, congrats you've lived another day
Thank god for EVERYTHING.

Maholo
Ofa atu
I love you all
Your friend for always,
Desiree Jasmin Rogers

Represent

(Confession:I'm attracted to poly boys..)
That's why I attempt adding little phrases as you can see.

Another rainbow

Hold up. I'm just kidding. Hold up what? You're just looking at a screen..what is there to hold up? Nothing.

Ok hi, I'm Desirée Jasmin Rogers. Oldest of 9. WoAH! Nine? Yes nine! It's ok though, it's not like I'm squished in a tiny house with 8 kids climbing over me. I actually have the lovely divorced parents situation. 2 brothers and 1 sister at my dads. Five brothers at my moms. And then you got me, the oldest of um' all.
There's one little nugget that keeps running my mind. His name is Joaquin.
Just to say his name brings the giant flood of tears to my eyes. Hold it in.

As I sat in church today it was kind of like a flash back. I sat exactly where I sat on the day of my brothers funeral. {I know I bring up this memory so much}
It's emotional I'll tell yuh! Truest of true love that day. From everyone. My mom, dad, stepmom, stepdad, grandma, Keian, a girl in my science class, cousins, brothers, and people I had never seen in my life. TRUE love.
But now that two years have come and gone..it's gone from everyone. But yet I hold that bit of day in my heart because there was so much love and it helps me forget the sadness of his death.

I miss joaquin so much. He's an angel! Literally! You guys don't even know...the emptiness I feel right now. I just want to see him smile right now and hold his small hand.

Gosh what a mess ill be tomorrow. Please..this sad weekend just leave me already!

••once you get through the rainfall..theres another rainbow••

Chocolate. Yea I'm gonna buy myself some delicious chocloate. Wait no not chocolate cuz I get stupid allergic reactions to it now! ICECREAM! Ice cream is what I'll get myself, because I don't have a wonderful boyfriend to do a sweet thing for me. Ice cream run for miss independent! Holla!

Kisses to everyone of your sweet foreheads.
Xoxo
Your friend,
Winnie the Pooh
Or Desiree..something like that. Haha

Well HOLLA

If I could travel back in time for just a few minutes right now,I'd travel back to the ninth grade talent show. One talent in particular.. A talent that made my heart melt. A talent that made me feel like the luckiest girl in the whole wide world. Alright I know..you've heard enough and you just wanna know what the stinkin talent was! Ok fine. It was a group called fob nation. My boyfriend at the time was in that group& he had written me a song and well..they sang it.
Now you're wondering, what's the point? All right, well I can't sleep & to hear his voice right now.. Yeahhh that would be heaven! Seriously, his voice..is SO SO beautiful! It's something I can't even describe. Its attractive. EXTREMELY!

So there's this guy from Ukraine..and HOLY HECK! He is THE funniest kid ever to be born on this earthly soil! His names demitri & this afternoon I got to watch him play soccer. What a hoot!

Why I brought him up is because..sometimes I feel like Heavenly Father places people in our life just to make our day brighter. I don't even know this kid and he was making me laugh SO hard! {It made my day better}His accent is hilarious! Not only him but random people..like this week a ton of random people have told me I look really pretty.{made my day better} I love it

Life is good & life is good

Who is ready for summer?! Ok, I know you all said yes..so why did I even ask??
Gunna go surf some waves with my number one homie in Miami! Hopefully! Fingers crossed still!

Whuh whuh whuh whuh wait!! Hold up! I forgot to announce..I made yearbook!!!
Don't say "mmh big whoop" because...I actually feel accomplished! Yes! Yes if you really want to give me a firm hand shake and a pat on the back I am fine with that! Holla!
I'm a proud mamma ! { a momma of my skills that is} scared you for a sec? I scare everyone, it's fine

BOO. Did I scare you.
Shhhh no need to answer! I already know I did

Alright enough with me.
I'm done.

From yours truly,
Desiree Rogers

It's a sad story

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh?" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand. "I just wanted to be sure of you.”

I love that quote. I feel like I do it to the guy I love all the time. But I'm sure I've never actually said it. I just wrap my arms around his arms and look at him for a sec, until he looks back at me with a little smile. Just a cute little quote I liked

Maybe the only time I feel better is when I grab my little brothers quilt and snuggle up in it. His sweet little tshirts cut into squares, making the perfect blanket.I miss him..more than you will EVER know.his blanket wipes away all my worries and tears.
I miss him. Please . I'd do anything to see him.

{quick moment to wipe away the disgusting mascara river flowing down the side of my pale cheeks}

I guess I feel like I'm going through such a great time of my life ..but then reality hits me and I'm back to number 1.
And my one little buddy who can ALWAYS make me happy, just...isn't here.
It's funny..
I'd walk into his room and his little head would quickly jerk up to look at me. Then he'd clap his two tiny tiny hands together and his feet would go wild. And the most precious part..his laugh.
How id do anything to hear it right now.
I walk up to your room..and you're not there..you're just not there..

I just want to grab my sleeping bag, pillow and flash light and come lay in grass right next to your stone.id kiss your sweet picture goodnight and sleep peacefully.

My heart aches.

It's a sad story. Ill be with you someday! I know it! I will work my bushy tail off just so I can squeeze you in my arms again.i love you.
Psh...I wish you could read this joaquin. And if you are. Any way. I miss you.. If you couldn't tell. Ill see you soon too, somewhere over the rainbow!
So many kisses. SO many.
But hey. I always got my special pillow pet . I like my pillow pet..:) {I know..I'm a little girl and asked for a pillow pet. It's the best pillow out there}

Xoxo
Your sister, to all
Desiree Rogers

Words n stuff

Procrastinating eh? Should be workin onhomework? Meh, it's typical..I do it too. Wait what?! Shoooot.. Looks like I should be doing my English homework, but instead I decide to put my 16 year old fingers to slave work and type on my blog that I'm sure not many people read. But hey it's fine, it's definitely better than homework.
Sometimes I wonder why homework is such a drag

I'm very exited for the date may 2&3
Grab a marker and mark your calendars everyone! It's the dance concert at OHS! Holla! Be there be square people! I might just give you a giant hug if you come. Usually I'd hide such a thing and make sure NO ONE found out about it, but hey I'm feelin lucky.

Can I just go lay under the stars right now and listen to reggae music ?with some prince of mine thatll try to impress me by pointing out all the stars and constellations, or even by telling me how to kill a vampire. Craving summer.. Badly
Sorry for such a dull blog tonight. Tomorrows will be better
Like spongebob might say:
" don't worry squid ward, it could be worse.. You could be bald and have a big nose"

Go watch spongebob or look up penguins on YouTube. {it'll make you smile..and that's healthy right?:) }
Im out!
Your friend anytime,
Dip { new nick name my uncle gave me}
Just go along with it

Smile and all that good stuff:)
Stay beautiful

Call me what you must

Congratulations to me! I am officially THE boringest person around! What can I say.. Not really sure to be honest. Maybe A pat on the..wait! OUCH, that hurt.

What a day it's been, high hopes from the moment my two brown eyes opened. I was definitely prepared for the best day and night to come! But then things, as usual..decide to flip on me. Nothing new

Ever just feel like people don't like the way you are? And maybe one of those people happens to be the guy you like? Tears the small pounding heart in my chest into TWO peices. iMPOSSIBLe! you might say. But no..I feel it. Literally feel it.
WELL SORRY!! Sorry.sorry.sorry.mmph.
*long sigh.....* and *lowering the head*
I guess I could take the quote from wreck it Ralph. "I'm desi& that's good, I will always be desi and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be than me"
Take it in des. Take it in.
I just need a hug. Warm big great long hug. Applications anyone?

On the plus side of the beginning of a long weekend.. I did check off a few things from my bucket list.
- peed In a backyard on a tree. {yes, yes I really did. You can re-read it if you want. It's all truth}
- Roller bladed in public in the road {what a show}
Basically had a great time with my sissy soul for the day. Thanks yo.

Well what I can say is. If you ever need to get your anger out...uhm just play call of duty. Why not? Just do it. It's fun

Yuhhhh-looooooow
Peace.bye.out.hella.buhbye.adios.chow
All the above

The officiall most boring person around,
Desiree Rogers

Could life get any better?

Riding a long board in the bright warm sun, eating flaming hott Cheetos, walking down memory lane in canyon view. Best day yesterday with my main sissy soul!
And if any of you were wondering about the ACT.. Ya the ACT can go kill itself.

Things running through my head:
(Math section) oh my gosh! Why am I so good at doing math? I just love math! Gunna rock this section!
*half way through the section*
Uhm. I hate math. What in the heck is that?... This is a trick question..that's not even solvable.
Good luck to those taking it in the future. Just prepare to go through living hell. Knashing of teeth, pulling out the precious locks of hair on your head, brain shutdown. All of the above

I love having a best friend who actually knows i like! best ever.

Ever just feel those MAJOR butterflies flying through the insides of your stomach when the guy you like gives the biggest warmest hugs? Ya pretty much have had those allll week! Am I lucky or what?!
Seriously. I've had THE best week. Got the best sissy soul and livin the yolo life with her (sorry to the "yolo" haters. Not) Seriously if anybody wants to tag a long, just ask! It'll be a blast! And not only that, but I get a great big o'l hug from my main sqweeeze! He's so cutie!

I love the GOSPEL! Could I say that enough??! It's so amazing and I just am ready to put on that tag ~sister Rogers
I say this in every post, I know. Forgive me. But the excitement is so great! Yeeeee!

Kisses to all,
Your friend Winnie the Pooh!
Aka. Desiree Rogers