Ok hi, I'm Desirée Jasmin Rogers. Oldest of 9. WoAH! Nine? Yes nine! It's ok though, it's not like I'm squished in a tiny house with 8 kids climbing over me. I actually have the lovely divorced parents situation. 2 brothers and 1 sister at my dads. Five brothers at my moms. And then you got me, the oldest of um' all.
There's one little nugget that keeps running my mind. His name is Joaquin.
Just to say his name brings the giant flood of tears to my eyes. Hold it in.
As I sat in church today it was kind of like a flash back. I sat exactly where I sat on the day of my brothers funeral. {I know I bring up this memory so much}
It's emotional I'll tell yuh! Truest of true love that day. From everyone. My mom, dad, stepmom, stepdad, grandma, Keian, a girl in my science class, cousins, brothers, and people I had never seen in my life. TRUE love.
But now that two years have come and gone..it's gone from everyone. But yet I hold that bit of day in my heart because there was so much love and it helps me forget the sadness of his death.
I miss joaquin so much. He's an angel! Literally! You guys don't even know...the emptiness I feel right now. I just want to see him smile right now and hold his small hand.
Gosh what a mess ill be tomorrow. Please..this sad weekend just leave me already!
••once you get through the rainfall..theres another rainbow••
Chocolate. Yea I'm gonna buy myself some delicious chocloate. Wait no not chocolate cuz I get stupid allergic reactions to it now! ICECREAM! Ice cream is what I'll get myself, because I don't have a wonderful boyfriend to do a sweet thing for me. Ice cream run for miss independent! Holla!
Kisses to everyone of your sweet foreheads.
Xoxo
Your friend,
Winnie the Pooh
Or Desiree..something like that. Haha
