To those in my life, I love you

If I could describe my week in one word it would be  y o l o

I couldn't have asked for better friends than the ones I have now. Friends that constantly wipe my tears&friends that I can absolutley be crazy with. 

Tuesday I had a dance concert & my guy(lol what do you call someone when you have feelings for eachother..but you're not bf/gf? Like you should be but you're not...) my mom,papa,my amazing friends and grandma showed up to support me dance. Such a small simple thing for them to show up but it meant a ton! Especially when "my boy" said "I came just for you" 

It's the little things. They all add up

Thursday was our last home game (until playoffs that is) ODC performed at the half time .. #confession I thought I danced terrible so I legit cried In my bestfriends arms for about 10 seconds because that could've been my last time to perform ever on that beautiful OHS football feild. Lucky enough (thanks to The Lord) WE WON!! Yes, I loveee watching our tigers play and successfully win! Unfortunately keian got hurt and couldn't play.. But lucky for me I got a good picture with him !

Since he couldnt really do anything but chillax I got to spend my Friday night cuddling up to him watching a scary movie with his homies!

Then finally this fantastic weekend came to a close dressing my mom up for a pirate party and me heading out to have a blast with my friends.. I can't even say the things we did.. They were just too fun. An experience you had to be there to even understand!

I've been extremely blessed. 

I love every single person that's ever walked into my life, for they have changed me for the better! 

Make this week count! Love The Lord and count your blessings!

Xoxo 

Blessed

The Lord never ceases to fail me, Even in my darkest most lost moments. 

Last night I lyed in bed with only one thing on my mind. I couldn't sleep

I went to sacrament and this sweet old lady arose to the stand to give her talk. 

My mind was still glued to my problem. All my intestines twisted and turned until I felt completely most utterly empty. My heart was thumping uncontrollably. Tears wanted to rush out my eyes but I had to stay strong. 

I said a small prayer in my heart begging..begging for his help. 

Then my attention focused to the sacrament speaker. Her strong but simple words touched my spirit. The words she spoke kept pearcing my soul and softening my heart. "He left what he loved , for something he loved even more(the savior)" 

The answer to my prayer. 

I literally had to close my eyes and try to hold back all the grateful tears that wanted to pour out. At my lowest point, when I thought all was lost.. The Lord was there for me . To tell me everything was ok. I'm here for you.

Writing this now , I'm still bawling. 

I'm so blessed to know the gospel. To know that I can ask for help with an open heart and hear what I need to hear. I'm so blessed. I can't even explain my love for the savior . I have a strong testimony on prayer and the unconditional love the savior has for each and every one of us.

Xoxo.

P.s. I had the best Sadie's date. Hott. Muscles. And funny. 

I love you all.

Prompt

When your best friend is dreaming endlessly and going through her own problems as it is the only person besides God that you can talk to around this time of night is.. Yourself. 

My fingers seems to freeze because what I want to write..AH lets just face the fact that I sound complainy when I write about this certain subject.

Listening to my one and only bon over doesn't seen to help the fact any either because his music puts me into bottomless thought and I want to cry for no reason at all. Maybe because his music is so enticing. Overall lesson : overthinking kills you.

Sometimes the Holy Ghost prompts you do something. Listen.

Because I was just promoted to watch a Mormon message and my loneliness left.

"If we have faith in Jesus Christ the hardest as well as easiest of times in life can be a blessing. In all conditions we can choose the right with guidance of the spirit. We have the gospel of Jesus Christ to shape and guide our lives if we choose it. We never need feel that we are alone or unloved In the lords service. We can feel the love of God. The savior had promised angels on our left and on our right to bear us up and he always keeps his word"- Elder Henry B. Eyring 

This simple but true loving statement shaped my night very differently. 

I am filled with the lords love. I know he knows what I'm feeling. I know he cares. I know. I'm blessed. 

He wiped away my sweet salty tears that rolled down my face tonight. 

It's nice to fall asleep happy. Loved and watched over. Did I already say. I'm blessed.

Here is my very sweet angel.

Be happy sweet souls .

Yours truly.

Desiree

| i dig black and white |

5 things to enjoy any weekend:

+ Ice Cream (unless you live in Utah and are trying to pull through the numbing weather..now, would probably not be a great time)

+ Hot Chocolate (only because I do live in Utah and am living through extreme polar weather. . yes I did exaggerate a little. . but I swear that is how I feel once I step outside) 

+ A great movie

+ sleeping in past 4:45 A.M .Lets make that 8AM

+ Best Friends

+ A boyfriend. Cuddles. Kisses. sadly enough.. I dont have one..SO. just boys in general

+ {one of my favorites} COD.zommmbies! 

+ Music

+ EXTRA SLEEP.

+ pinterest.

So. My weekend was amusing. Spent time with my girl Connie to go visit a sweet soul to wish her a very happy birthday.and guess to the what?.. Shes Cals sister. It was a bit weird to spend time in that house again but there is always good vibes there. After,we hung out with probably some of the hottest guys. Mike Kee. Zac and Sasha..along with the silly billy. SO i guess Mikes basement is haunted?.. haha Its always fun to get the adrenalin rush. Never a dull time with them. Before we went home we took a sweet drive down to provo and listened to our one and only bon iver and just cried because that's what girls do. Cried because.. We are growing up and we cant stop time to be little kids. Cried because bon ivers music just makes us want to cry Cried because we are single ( literal LOL) but you know what? who cares.

we have eachother. And i couldn't be more blessed to have such a great friend.

xx- Desi

                         

It's time

Whenever I plug my headphones into my phone at school I get the creepiest feelin crawl up in my stomach that once I press play, the music will blast as loud as it can making everyone turn their heads just to see what the noise was.

I'm in study hall. Of course the day I want to read, I leave my book at home.. So now I'm here anxiously waiting for my next class.. Because in my next class.. I have a math test!! Dun dun dun. Biting my nails, sweating up a storm!.. Wait no I'm not sweating up a storm because it's colder than Antarctica here at the home of the tigers.

It's kind of strange to pull out your headphones.. It's like you're in a whole nother world. Silence...music..silence..music. 

| yes I took skeleton selfies |

On to another note.. I'm going to Sadie's!( he's attractive...)  

I'm pretty exited!! I love this time of the year! The warm colors that scatter themselves along the mountain walls, the grey skies that make everything pop in extreme color and last but not least.. Cuddling, hot chocolate and scary movies because it's the season of scaringggg! Rawr. < that rawr could've scared you if you actually said it scary out loud and you're alone in an empty house.. Or you either laughed histaricaly at yourself because you can't make a scary rawr.  Or..... You're a bum head and you're still staring at the screen with a straight face. 

Sadie's will be a party. Yes it will. 

I cross my fingers and pray about a million times tht this dj will be the ishhhh! 

Because homecomings dj sucked! He repeated the songs!! Big no no. BIG! 

.. I miss writing.. 

On my blog. ( not in school. Haha )

I like being creative and open . In school it's a closed form and everything is so straight forward and get to the point seriousness. 

Anyway. What are you still doin reading this? Go buy something scary... Or do something scary.. Or go see insidious 2.

And .. If you do go. Take me:) 

Ok ok.

Ta ta for now. Xoxo

Mahalo | peace