thank you.

Today I woke up early on a bright summer day to attend my lil bug's kindergarten graduation.
kindergarten graduation. You heard me right.
Spent a day with my bully of friend Connie who i call my sister, before she leaves me alone in this month of June.
And watched The Perks of being a Wallflower FINALLY

That movie was.. TOO good. leaves you thinkin.. about everyone's trials. EVERYONE has something in their life that is hard for them. I guess I never stop to think that sometimes. Sometimes I just see other peoples lives as perfect and only wish to have a life like theirs, when really they could be going through such a hard time at the end of the day.. but simply hide it with a perfect smile.

I just am feeling very grateful for those who have and are in my life.  Who have helped me every step of the way in my life and making me a better person. For those who lent me their shoulder to cry on, To those who I've had heart to hearts with, or to those kind hearted people i don't know who tell me that I'm beautiful.
thank you.
Even if you didn't know what I was talking about in any of my posts, or someone who was going through it.. you made me not feel alone." I know these will all be stories someday and our pictures will become old photographs and we'll all become somebodies mum or pa, but right now..these moments are not stories.. ITS HAPPENING. I'm here. You're here. This one moment when you're not a sad story, you're alive. You stand up and see things, things that makes you wonder. you're here with the people you love most in this world. make the best of it.

photo by : Valentina Galvez

Next.. I love a song that goes against what I believe. The ladies voice is so perf and ya.. Its catchy. Yuh know? But its talking about same sex. {sorry to those who are supporters of same sex} but i just cant see how people think that's right. Anyhoo, I looked it up.. the song of course, and watched the video. AWKO TACO. when the guys kiss.. ope! close the ojos.. super weird. I'm all about the REAL love between a man and women for sure. Because of love between a man and a women.. I WAS BORN. but i guess its never been a trial ive had to go through.. to love the same sex.. and im sure its terribly hard..but you CAN make it through because god is watching over  and loves you.
so i take the words she sings " I can't change, even if i tried..even if i wanted to" as me. As who i am.. a girl that should be proud of who i am. My talents. how I'm shy and my crazy personality. See.. i would trade anything to not be shy. i hate being shy..but its who i am..i'm always going to be a shy bee at first but..that's me. take it or leave it.

I'm so grateful to grow up in such a beautiful state. and be around the people I am. I'm Immensely grateful that I was born into the gospel as well. cant even explain my love for it. I know god love you! he knows you personally and cares about you with all his heart. Dont believe me? well find out for yourself. pray and let him into your life. you'll find joy. complete happiness.

BUT I LOVE EVERYONE MUCHO. xoxo
love my blog readers {insert adorable kissy face here}

with love.
- Desiree Rogers

hello summer

Junior year . ------------->

How time flies. I can still remember back to the first day of school seein my first crush of the year, Cal Joyner.{sexiest kid alive} I swear only yesterday I was hanging out with him and my two sissy souls {Connie and Val} cheering on one of my best friends on at his football games, sleepovers, Mcdonalds, heart to hearts, riverwoods, late night drives with Korbin, photoshoots, basketball games, all the dances.

Not gonna lie, but Junior year wasn't one of my favorite years. Lost friends for stupid reasons,  got my heart broken by a guy I never thought I would. But then again, Junior Year was GREAT!
Lots of lessons learned.

Anyhoo, I got my yearbook signed by two hottiebobotties. {i know, I'm a little girl when it comes to these things} said i was a "straight up babe."
laugh about it if you want. i dont curr.

SO SENIOR YEAR! COME AT ME!

Its that time of the year again. Swim Suit shopping. Im gunna be honest.. I wanna try High waist swim bottoms soo Im gunna! I cant wait to get my fishily body in the water and just swim!!

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Congrats to the seniors of 2013

{applause}

oh and enjoy the song.

xoxo

DESIREE

360

I never know how to start these things off. Do I start it out with an amazing blow your mind inspirational quote? A question that will boggle your mind and leave you finding the answer for weeks upon weeks? A joke that will leave you peeing your new chair because you laughed so hard?
Or do I just simply start out with my story.

I guess you could say I've found a stress reliever. Watching My Strange Addiction
Literally Laughing my head off. I'm weird..but I'm glad to know I'm not the oddest ball out there.

Well right here and right now I'm about to vent..because this is my online journal.
So at this point if you don't like to hear anything complainy.. I suggest you click that red little box on the corner of your screen.

I'm at the point in my life where.. i'm just lost. Lost lost lost.
The person I've always longed for to lift me up, be there to hug me, listen, and to be told I love you from is constantly putting me down.
How do I live with someone that calls me a slut..
How do I live with someone who makes me feel worthless
now im not saying shes never said I love you..because she has. she cares about me.. deep down.. I know it. I just wish she'd show it.
Now im not typing this to change anything. Its just my journal.
I'm just lost in thought. Confused. Frustrated.

I like a guy.
Amazing. That's what id call him.
I don't know why this guy walked into my life but he did.
He's obviously here for a reason. For good or for better.
I'm bittersweet happy around him.
But i'm stuck with a mom who doesn't seem to want ANY guy in my life.
as if its illegal. come on!! Im 17..
I dont know everything. Dont know a lot of things.. but you got to let me try to learn things on my own..
Give me advise, ill take it.. but dont stop me.
I DONT want to play any romeo and juliet games. Like seriously im far far far from wanting to do that.
but how do I stay away from someone whose impacted my life.

this is where it gets weird if any of my lovely family is reading this. Just close your eyes:)
jk. enjoy this teenage moment with me

His hands adhered my face
Holding it like it was the most valuable thing he'd ever held.
His fingers ran down through my hair and stayed where the crevasse of my neck and head connect
Butterflies.
He looked into my boring brown eyes as if they were filled with numerous amount of color.
He looked as if he had so much to say but couldn't
Perfect.
There was no kiss to be met. 
Except for the magic of silence and thought 
Happy
Right

A moment i've never experienced more perfect 

Alright. enough with being corny. haha but honestly. what a story.

I'm so glad to have my little sister in my life.
I got home in such a sad mood. Only waiting to the minute i walked into my house to ball my eyes out
But she came instantly to the door and gave me the warmest hug.
I always enjoy coming to my dads vecause of the love that is shared.
Once I walk through that door i know ill be greeted with warm hugs and " I missed you!"
She was there to wipe away the tear inside of me.
Love that lil bug.

Ohana.
Stay strong and carry on
Love to all.
xoxo
Desi

Happy birthday to my sweetheart in heaven

Aloha,

Somewhere over the rainbow. Way up high, I wish my little guardian angel a very happy birthday.

My baby brother is nine today. And I still call him my baby brother. 

Gosh. Can you just be here Joaquin? 

Your song is playing right now. My heart is racing and memories are flooding through my head. 

If tears can build a stairway and memories a handrail

I'd walk right up to heaven..And just stinkin bring you home again.

The pain I feel at loosing you will never go away. But knowing that you're in my heart, helps me through each day 

When you were here I felt that nothing could go wrong

But you're still my inspiration 

And the memories keep me strong

And though my heart is heavy ..

It's also full of love! And that's enough to comfort me .. While you're in heaven, up above

Tiny lil you. I'm talking to you and honestly don't even know if you can read this. But I know you know I love you! And that's all that matters. 

Happy birthday sweet thing. 

Anyhoo chicken poo,

What to say..what to say..

School is officially out {yes, this is your time to jump for joy and scream because you are so happy ..UNLESS !!... You're a Bum..and have already graduated..} 

Actually, not gunna lie! But as much as I want school to be over with, I also cannot wait for next year! Senior year. Holy Chet. Dees is beeg. 

Excuse me to freak out for a sec..

Ok back. Haha well last night I used Skype and skyped a great friend! Too good! Got to know (t) better and just laugh and cry. 

I can't even explain how happy I am. Like literally . No words can explain it.

Maybe I need to see a doctor?

Nehh I'm fine foo. I'm just a happy chug.

Time to listen to the nightly chill tunes on pandora and dream of crazy things. 

Yes? Yes. 

Goodnight to all. With love. Lots of it

Your friend ,

Desi

17 years young

While the last 60 minutes of my birthday lasts I might as well write a blog post. 

Happy birthday to the mistake baby!

I got many birthday wishes and am so berry grateful for them all. Even from a long lost..Barbie boy. Shh cover your Ojos. You never saw that.

Time flies. The countdown starts officially. 365 days until I am 18 and free from living the life of divorced parents. 

Honestly . Sometimes I get so frustrated and think "why me? I thought Heavenly Father only gave us challenges we could handle." So I kinda had to talk to myself and say.. Well, I must be able to handle this if I'm given this challenge.

So this simple phrase has stuck with me

~ you will make it because you can do it

I can do this baybeeee!

This birthday has taught me a lot. Family. How important they are to me. 

I know I'm that accident baby but.. I'm so happy I'm here! I'm so grateful for everyone I've ever met who has made me stronger, given me hope, held my hand through the toughest times, cried with me or even  hurt me

17 years young.

Didn't get to blow out any candles tonight. But I'll tell you what I would have wished for.

To have my lil man {.. Gosh can't even type this without crying..} Joaquin. Lil brother of mine be here to celebrate with me. 

So here's the secret candle I blow out now .. & wish To see him in my dreams tonight. 

With love. 

Big n tuff 

(Bless my heart)

- Desiree Jasmin Rogers

Im a girl ready for adventure

I'm a girl ready for adventure. I'm pretty sure I should be a senior and graduating in a few days.. Oh wait no still got ONE more year. And oh how that year will fly! 

Honestly.. I've already got my first thing planned for myself after I graduate. Goin on another lil trip to Hawaii. Yes you heard me right. I'm gon get det cash flow n get my lil booty there and guess what?! No one can stop me. Freeeedom! I can smell it already.

2 more days till my lil burfday! The big 17.  17 years young! And then I can officially start the countdown to the day I'm on my own. No more switching houses back and forth. No more, no more and NO more. Can't wait to get rid of dem chains

K why the fuss am I talking like..a gangsta. I got a problem. Help. 

Isn't it so neat how people walk into our lives. My aunt lived in Hawaii for a long time and one of my elementary fling boyfriend moved there. So one day, I don't even know how we ended up adding each other on Facebook but I met a guy named Tevin. Never talked to him until 2 months ago because.. He moved to happy valley Utah! And I guess you could say.. Things are going smooth. He and his cousins.. Gee. Such a good time.  I don't even know how to explain how I feel . Just.. Happy..! And I'm lovin it!!

Yes yes yes. But I was just thinking to myself.. Would me n him have ever met if my aunt didn't live in Hawaii or if my friend from elementary moved there? 

I love having a dad I can just talk to . He listens to everything . I'm SO thankful for that. Gotta love family.

Live the aloha spirit. 

Aloha. Mahalo

Xoxo

-this girl Desi

It started with a prayer

Wow on wow on wows! Recently I've had theeee WORST blogs EVER. Apology..

It started with a prayer!

What? you might say. Well I'm here to tell you that my lovely day started with a thoughtful prayer. 

My day was amazing pretty much. Most confident ever and unfortunately sick.. 

After school I layed out in the body tingling warm sun and relaxed while listening to the motion picture soundtrack The Great Gatsby. {yeee-uh.. Get off yo lil booty and getcho self to a theater if you haven't seen it!..seriously.. GO!}

After that I chilled with the funnies! Josh, Angel and Tev. I only named these people because.. I'm pretty sure you'll be hearing more about them later! 

Gosh! I was sick to the T but as cool as I am.. I played my sickness off. I can't even explain how fun these Dewey's were! Just random fun things everywhere you could walk!

Tev. Is a dancer , and into cinematography .. Like woah. 

We are the same person here.. 

I like eeeet. I luff eeeet. I wants shum mo of eeet. 

Guys! Holddddd uppppp! 

I made the dance team for my high school! Me? Say vhaaaa? 

 I'm verrrryy exited. Dance is just a good time. Yuh get me?  Knew it. 

Well. C.R. Stupid T's tomorrow. What a killer. School just end. K thanks.

Haha gosh. Live yo life to the fullest!

Maholo nuggs

Yo migo - D 

Xoxo

Just a weekend

Where do I begin.

Lets begin with.. I finally met the guy from Hawaii. Wait what? Haha ya I actually haven't mentioned him yet.

Anyhoo, he lived in Hawaii.. Knew my cousins, and my sixth grade boyfriend. So ya. And he's got one of the coolest accents around! Holla

Next I saw THE GREAT GATSBY. 

And I've been reading the book and been dying to see it.. So I went. Simple as det

I lovvveeeed it. So many neat things to learn from that book. Here's a few quotes I love from the book. Fitzgerald is just an AMAZING writer! 

••"All I kept thinking about, over and over, was 'you can't live forever, you can't live forever"

••“In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I've been turning over in my mind ever since.

"Whenever you feel like criticizing any one," he told me, "just remember that all the people in this world haven't had the advantages that you've had.” 

••“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.” 

So pretty much that's just a pinch of salt from such a great book. And I highly recommend you to read it. Lets be honest though, it's hard to get into at the beginning. But just gets good towards the middle.

So yea. That's my day. Yes yes yes. 

Awe sad day for me on Friday. I got sick and it was my last day teaching my little nuggs in elementary. I had such a time with them Dewey's. too fun. 

It's almost summmmma! Yayyer.

Kiss me away.

K thanks. All the kisses to you! Ya you!

Sincerely yo suga bean, Desi 

Optimist.

Well I'm going to start off by saying the Odc and Od3 show was amazing!
Must say I did get my hopes up because someone said {promised} they'd be there and ..they didnt come. If yo gon make a promise.. Keep it. But to those who came..I'm sure you'd agree it was pretty good!

Optimist

Sho. Feelin a little bit hopes brokened I had a sleep ova with muh main homie. And in the morn..PROM! Bless our dates hearts..
Fun.fun.fun.
Played the license plate game on the way up to lagoon and I pretty much won;)
And then we met up with the group. Holy cow! 30 people in le group! Wowza! Should've seen when we tried to take pics! ..what an adventure!
Then after lagoon, my friend and I had to make Boutonnieres because..well..we kinda procrastinated and didn't buy one early enough. {props to Mr. Lawson for actually teaching us something we could use in life} and then got all perty for the dance. The dance was beautiful! Rooftop dance! It was a night/weekend to remember!

Optimist.

Once upon a time.. There was a girl. This girl had just barley started her freshman year. She sat down in her English class nervous for the new beginning. She had just broken up with her eighth grade boyfriend that summer and knew that this year was going to be different..cause, well..she wouldn't have a boyfriend to walk her to class n what not. She was livin as many people know "the single life".
As the bell rang for class to start three other people sat in the desks around her. The group of desks consisted of two girls and two boys. In her head she thought to herself "oh.. I can handle this. These people seem very nice" and then the one that would change her life sat in his seat. Secretly she got very nervous around him because he was one of the cool kids. He would think she was weird. But as the weeks passed on they slowly started small talking. "Hey..do you have a pencil?" Or just a simple "Hey"
Even though he talked to her..she still though that he thought she was the weirdest girl to live. And yuh know..she is. But that didnt change anything. One day passing the halls to go to the next class he walked by and stopped her. She looked at the flimsy paper he gave her and it was an invite to one of his friends party. Woahhh. {She felt cool. Don't tell. That's a secret.} Unfortunately she couldn't ever make it to the party but got his number and they started to text.

To be continued..

Optimist.

Song of the week: Pompeii
Check it out because I just LOVEit.

I love you all. Smile because.. Why not? Be happy. Don't give a shiz about dumb little things and have a good time!

Sweet dreams. Many kisses and one great big hug.
To be honest. I just randomly put optimist everywhere. So take it in and be optimistic

Xoxo.
Sincerely,
Me Desi