It's been real & it's been fun.

Well this Is the end my friends! The end of 2012! Today my last post of the year is going to be about my 2012 year!
Sadly. I wish I could redo this year. But oh how it's passed so quickly!! In the blink of an eye we are at the end.

My year consisted of ..just a sad love story. Heart broken more than you can count. Nights of heartache and tears. All the words he spoke was a dagger in me. Nights questioning how such a perfect love could shatter so quickly. But luckily. Through those hard times I found myself and how much my Heavenly Father loves me. How his heart is full of love and how much he can comfort me when I'm sad.
After praying and praying my mind finally left the guy I loved. I didn't ever think of him. But I still loved him. ~In my life theres been no one like him anywhere, anywhere where he is. If he asked. Ha. I'd be his. < that's off les mis {I'm obsessed} just kinda fit there so I put it there:)

Jealousy sure got a good kick out of me though. Made me dislike a girl I once called a good friend. I wish I could see her sweetness again. But I just can't. I will tho:) I'm still workin on it!
I did listen to one quote saying "if you love something, let it go. If it doesn't come back it was never meant to be, if it does its yours to keep" in my head I always thought. This is goodbye for me. As you can see I loved this guy so freakin much ..poo. It sucked. After all that junk n java i did meet a really cool kid. I never really liked him. A small crush.I guess you could say.. he was one of theeee hottest guys at my school. I gotta spend my days with him and my friends. Cal Joyner. Unfortunately this lil felluh, had many many girlies on his back. So I stayed away from that. But the guy i loved ..eventually.. he came back to me:) I'm still questioning if I'm just another girl right now tho. I've found some things out..Sometimes I wish I'd never known.
But honestly, through the trials you have. You find God. You truely convert. You see his tender mercies he brings you every day. I like to write mine down & look back to see how blessed I was to receive those
You become a stronger person. Because even the darkest nights will end and the sun will rise again. Juss sayin!
This year I also got to meet new friends. I'm so glad I have them. They don't know what I'm going through. Yet.. They sure of know how to make me laugh!!
I remember last year on New Years! Wow. I reunited with my best friends! Karla and Monica! ..that was the beginning for us. I wonder whats in store for me on this new beginning. Im so exited. It's crazy. Time will fly again in 2013.. And next thing you know. I'll be a senior and graduated!!.. Oh man!
Well tw3ntyy tw3lv3 { It's been real and it's been fun. But it hasn't been real fun.
2013. Be good to me.
Happy New Years!!
Sincerely.. Mee.. Desi!

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