I'm really trying my best to keep myself together right now.
This is the second Christmas without my brother. For the past few weeks I've just been having flash backs of when he opened his Christmas presents and the look in his eyes! He was SO happy! His smile could make your day for weeks upon weeks!
Our last family picture with him was one with Santa in the university mall. I still remember that day so clearly. It was near closing time and I wanted to hang out with this guy I liked and I just wanted to go home as soon as I could. I was so upset that I couldn't go hang out because I was taking a picture with Santa! What would I tell my friends?! But now. I am SO SO SO thankful we have that picture with santa.
Time is going by so quickly. Only moments and ill finally be in his presence again.
I'm So THANKFUL for that picture. My heart aches and cries. I can still remember how soft his hands were..how big his brown eyes were..his soft thick hair that only flowed one way. His laugh. His small feet that rubbed back and forth against eachother.
I miss you dearly
~ill see ya soon then
