February was quite the difficult // best time of the year for me! Lost n gained friends. & have been spending lots of time with my sweet angel at his cemetery alone lately! I actually took a run to get in some sort of shape as well. Let me tell yuh.. that was rough. I'm not in shape at all! More work to be done definitely. Not a lot to say except for my most sincere apologies about not finishing my blog challege! WHOOPS! college classes can be THE worst sometimes! SO ya. kisses to all those who still read my blog. loveeee you. I hope errybody had the best valentines day even if they didnt have someone special to share it with! Just in case any of you wanted to know and for me to brag a lil'.. I had the funnest valentines day! Uhm my dad just walked in and read my blog. AWKO TACO. hehe. kk im leavin now cuz my motivation to write is suddenly gone so im going to enjoy the rest of my lazy sunday:) 

maholo. xoxo

P.S im addicted to pinterest.

like how what why . 

Blog Challenge Day 2

| first love |

I dont really know how to start off with this post. I've talked ones leg off about this Mr. before.

Where we met: We met in our ninth grade english class. I was quite scared to have to sit by him to tell you the truth. A big outgoing polynesian sitting next to shy and bashful Desi. COMPLETE oppisites. He was class clown, i was geeky ready to learn me. One day he invited me to his friends party and i was in shock that mr. popular class clown was asking me to go to this party. I quickly took the invite and ran off. If you're wondering if I attended the party..your answer is no. lol. Around that same time he told everyone in our small clump of tables to go to his football game! soo.. yes, I secretly went to the football game with my friend and mom and bragged about how he was the football captain and how special I felt that he invited me to some party. In the halls at school he would always ask me what movie I was in and I would give him the same answer every time wondering why he couldn't remember! He would walk me to my classes and ask me questions, and even though I barley said one word he would still find a reason to stand by me to talk to me. Then he messaged me on Facebook.. and from there we got each others number.

After that feelings for him started to grow.. but they were on and off. We were very bad at communication. We started liking other people.

That January my sweet brother returned to heaven and in desperate need of comfort, he opened his arms for me. That instant my heart belonged to him. His sister had also passed away and he gave me words of comfort. After that I remember him walking with the girls (yes there is an S on girls) he liked and told myself in my head with such confidence that I would be his girl again and not them. Lucky Ducky me, it happened! On February 14, I was his girl *officially*

As time went on he wrote me a song and played it in the talent show (had to keep it a secret to hug or else his mom would see) I was on cloud 9. He treated me like royalty. On my birthday he gave me a pillow pet, lip gloss and a necklace! THE SWEETEST! those things are very sentimental to me to this day! We spent endless hours together!! As we entered high school, we didnt seperate! We were bestfriends! He still is my bestfriend infact. My love for him grew stronger n stronger

Fun Fact: We didnt kiss till the winter of sophmore year. True love lemme tell you.

After all our fights and breakups we always found a way back to eachother. He's always been a good example and sweet friend in my life. 

I could go on in explaining our relationship to this day but you'd get lost in a crazy love story.

So ill end in short. HES DE COOLEST n I love det silly kid to this day! haha

I guess, you'll know what love is when it happens. You care about them so much! Butterflies. Always butterflies. You care about their happiness. love.

Onto another note, I LOVE MY SEMINARY CLASS.

I have THEE best teacher and classmates!

Positive Vibes always.

xoxo

            

Blog Challenge

+ Self  +

yo yo yo

I always feel like i need to start out with some sort of gangsta rap.

so i'm taking on the blog challenge. my first day begins with a selfie.

This picture happens to be the only decent picture I haven't posted it. 

+ I'm seventeen. I live in a beautiful home with a beautiful family

Im a lover, sentimental person, cryer, laugher. Sun lover, but mostly my heart crys out for the rain.

Only in spring though.. wait scratch that.. it can definitely rain in the summer too! And i'd rather have rain than snow. Why? because nobody has ever taken me to go skiing or snowboarding. I LOVE breakfast. Probably one of my most favorite meals. French toast is de best. I also love food. Everyone does though.. so thats not even something unique about me. lol.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE music. What would my life be without it? prolly nothing. I say prolly a lot, i should stop. Cats are cute. I prolly* just lost 7 zillion readers by saying that. Why are people cat haters? they take care of themselves n walk around all cutie! Ya, they get all grumpy and old but so do we. I love lemonade! I love dancing though! You just close your eyes, turn up the music..not just a little.. but ALL the way. full blast or dont even try. Then you just let your emotions fly out your body. theres a few things that make up me.  

another thing.. i love little kiddos. 

I cant wait to tuck my little nuggies into bed or have them snuggled up to me in their pj's.

Just because we are on the subject ill tell you what cute names i kinda have picked out. ( you can judge me) Remi, Kostyn, Chanel & Beckham. I have more but those are my faves so far. 

Besides Selfie Day one.

Id like to take this small moment in life and freak out about college.

I'm ready to do something people call "sciddaddle "

I'm ready for the challenges of the world. Hurry up and let school end and get me graduated 

PLEASE!

until tomorrow,

xoxo

Its no secret i've been a little MIA. & i'm completely sorry from the softest part of my beating heart. 

Sometimes there's nothing more comforting then letting all your thoughts run wild onto your journal. 

Tonight my story begins with something that all comes into our lives at least once. Love.

Whether it comes from your parents, family, friends or even your admirable someone. I guess what I am trying to say and failing terribly at it is, I hate loosing people I love. Like what? Why the heck does it have to happen? 

Goodbyes aren't my favorite,

And sometimes I just have to tuck myself under my big fluffy white covers and cry myself to sleep because I feel like I've lost some part of me. I don't understand why the trials we have happen to us. But I know they have a purpose. It's all part of gods plan. He knows where to place the puzzle pieces and I don't. 

I can't seem to help but let all my tears out tonight. (Call me a crybaby but hey..it happens right?)  my little brother Joaquin seems to inspire me all the time. Knowing that he stands at the Saviors feet makes me want to become like him & push forward everyday so when the day comes, I'll stand with him again.

{ Forgive me as you mentally watch me break down. }

Joaquin's 3 year anniversary 

We miss you.

Guys, College. It's right around the corner. My life is moving faster than ever.

Time for me to figure out who I, Desiree Jasmin Rogers am& Who I'm going to become. Who god wants me to become. We are all put here on this earth for a reason and I'm going to figure out my purpose. Time to enjoy the journey & learn from everything I do.

i believe in christ.
so come what may.
with him i'll stand,
in that great day.

Xoxo.

+ miss desi

I haven't done this in quite the while, So bare with me and my late night thoughts tonight..or morning to be literally correct.

It's 3:13 am on a lovely Friday morn and I'm inside the coolest fort (made by my sister and I ) watching Netflix and holding my breathe while holding in my pee... Yes, I just said I'm holding in my pee. Hashtag # first world probs. I've treated myself with watching Netflix all night! I haven't watched Netflix in forever and I'm definitely glad to watchin my shows again.

Christmas! Christmas! I missed my post on Christmas! & whole bunches of things which means this post might just end up being a novel. Like I said, bare with meh!

First.. My year has been made because, yes, some felluh asked me on a date to see the temple square holiday lights!! Not only once, but I got to go two times!! I'm quite the lucky gal! 

First date//

Second round//

The Christmas season is my absolute favorite because you get to sit back hang out with family, eat tons of food without getting looked at like they can see your future in a big lump of fatness, listen and sing to the happiest most jolliest songs ever created, cuddle, drink hot cocoa, take rad pictures of blurry lights to post on every social media you might possibly have and last but not least sit on the lap of the one and only Santa freakin dinkin' clause!

Something inside of my head is banging hard on my head tellin me "yuhh.. Desi? I thinks it's uh time you get yourself some rest"  but no..I must fight this fight and type the type!

I'll sum up my long long story to a tiny story. Here it goes:

I have amazing friends!! Yes there was a "s" on the end of friends! I love my family! My "like" life is great!! Because the guy I like is THE best. Wayho. And The Lord is always by my side!! Which ends my story well. Sweet dreams peeps.

HB to my pappa frito.

Xoxo 

me.

It's been a long day

And all I've got to say is make it strong

It's been a long day

And all I've got to say is I've been wrong

So take a leave of absence

Tell me you'll be gone

I don't want to see your face

It's been a long day

And I just wanna hide away

It's been a long week

And all the lines come down heavy on me

Its been a long week

I'm finally feeling like its okay to break

Into a thousand pieces

No one can replace

Only I can find my way

It's been a long day

And I just wanna hide away

Its been a long year

And everyone around me's disappeared

It's been a long year

And all this mess around me is finally clear

So can I have a moment

Just to say hello?

Can you let your anger go?

It's been a long year

And I'm finally ready to be here

To those in my life, I love you

If I could describe my week in one word it would be  y o l o

I couldn't have asked for better friends than the ones I have now. Friends that constantly wipe my tears&friends that I can absolutley be crazy with. 

Tuesday I had a dance concert & my guy(lol what do you call someone when you have feelings for eachother..but you're not bf/gf? Like you should be but you're not...) my mom,papa,my amazing friends and grandma showed up to support me dance. Such a small simple thing for them to show up but it meant a ton! Especially when "my boy" said "I came just for you" 

It's the little things. They all add up

Thursday was our last home game (until playoffs that is) ODC performed at the half time .. #confession I thought I danced terrible so I legit cried In my bestfriends arms for about 10 seconds because that could've been my last time to perform ever on that beautiful OHS football feild. Lucky enough (thanks to The Lord) WE WON!! Yes, I loveee watching our tigers play and successfully win! Unfortunately keian got hurt and couldn't play.. But lucky for me I got a good picture with him !

Since he couldnt really do anything but chillax I got to spend my Friday night cuddling up to him watching a scary movie with his homies!

Then finally this fantastic weekend came to a close dressing my mom up for a pirate party and me heading out to have a blast with my friends.. I can't even say the things we did.. They were just too fun. An experience you had to be there to even understand!

I've been extremely blessed. 

I love every single person that's ever walked into my life, for they have changed me for the better! 

Make this week count! Love The Lord and count your blessings!

Xoxo