rainy days give me inspiration and emotional healing.
I could go on and on about how much i cherish the rain but today, I won't.
As the count continues I am at 16 days before I leave for my mission.
Everyday that passes it hits me more and more.
The day I started my mission papers I have come to see how real satan is.
How hard he has and is still trying to tear me down everyday, every hour and every minute.
I've also come to realize how much more powerful God is.
The other night the amount of days I had left weighed heavy on my shoulders.
My grandmas husband decided to start drinking again and when I had gotten home that night the vibes were not the best. My grandma was upset and frustrated and her husband was (VERY) scary.
I was sitting on my bed filled with many different emotions about ready to burst into a million tears. - for those who don't know, I'm a crybaby. Recently my aunt gave me an LDS quote book, a quote for each day of each month. Before sad tears could make their way out of my eyes i looked down not really realizing I was holding that book in my hands and happened to have it on the date of August 19 (the day I report to the MTC) The header read : BE A LIGHT
the quote below read: I the Lord have called thee in righteousness and will hold thine hand and will keep thee and give thee for a covenant of the people, for a light of the Gentiles; to open the blind eyes, to bring out the prisoners from prison and them that sit in darkness out of the prison house.
HOW PERFECT?!?! sad tears turned into happy tears and I felt so comforted. All things that were weighing heavy on me were gone. but once again, HOW PERECT?!
The night I officially decided to serve a mission I was sitting in the empty parking lot at the provo temple searching my scriptures and stumbled across a scripture that talked about being a light and bringing people out of darkness. I loved how they went hand in hand with each other.
I love that the Lord watches out for us, he knows us and our situations so perfectly. He knows what we need and WHEN we need it.
YOU GUYS!! the BOOK OF MORMON IS TRUE!! and the primary weren't kidding when they said sing scripture power. There is amazing power that comes from the book! It brings happiness to your week, it brings light and love in the home .. IT DOES SO MANY AMAZING THINGS!! why is it so cool?! don't believe me?! READ IT!
xx. so much love.
also, If you need good music for this rainy day just type in bon iver on soundcloud and listen to all the music that plays after. :)
dont cry, hold your head up high