It's never too late to express your thoughts is it? I honestly never know where to start to be honest. My whole motivation to write tonight was actually me reading hunter koffords blog and thinking.. wow , you literally spoke my mind these past few weeks.
Now for some you may be thinking.. Ok who is hunter and others may have actually read her post already! She's writes beautifully and I highly suggest you read her blog. I will be quoting her a lot tonight because she says everything so spot on, you can't really beat it.
P.s. Enjoy a few vsco friendly pictures of mine.
For these past summer months I've been in a place of change on so many different levels. Some things harder than others but all together this BIG change.. Which you could say.. I'm an expert at. Not. I actually struggle with this because I love consistency. I like to know what I have ahead of me, what I'm going to be fighting for and everytime I get an unexpected challenge ..bam! ( but don't we all) 'I have learned that things happen when you least expect them, and more often than not, when you don't want them to.' I know God put these challenges in my life and had a purpose to their timing.. I may not know why , but I know that in some way I'm going to grow from these experiences in good time and that they are shaping me for my future. I already know that I have grown so much these past few months.. Learning to be there for others and even myself, knowing that it's ok to be alone.
'I have been able to look deep inside myself and pull strength from crevices i didn't even know existed. i have been able to be the crutch for others, and in return, be my own. nothing about life is easy, . i've learned that it is OKAY to feel. it's okay to allow yourself wiggle room. it's okay to follow your heart, even if it is different from something you've normally done or something someone else feels you should do.' I guess this was the time that God said "it's time to get to know who you are" and to be honest, I've come to love and be comfortable with myself more than I ever have. I love where I am now!
I couldn't be more grateful for the people in my life who are constantly fighting for me. They are your true friends, they are the type of people I absolutely look up to & strive to be like them daily. Sometimes you also have those people in your life who come and go.. Whether you like it or not. *bleep* happens. (Yes, I'm sure you all know what the bleep is..forgive my language choice haha) something that hunter(blogger) said that I absolutely love is.. 'sometimes, you have to give all you can to someone and love them so fully and expect nothing in return. expectations can damage a soul, give your all to someone so they can know what it feels like to be fought for, and in return, someone will fight for you.'
Things come and go in their own time 'I've learned that as long as you give all you can, things will eventually make their way back to you- in their own time and place, and in their own way. '
All I do know .. Is our father in heaven has a plan for us.. He will boot the people out who are hurting it an bring in those that will make it better. Haha why does that sound so awful. Forgive me.. He has something better in store for us. He knows us and cares SO much for us!! I've also have built a strong relationship with our father and savior. Words can not fully express how much I love the gospel , god , our brother and savior. We are not alone. I KNOW FOR A FACT. I also know.. GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS! I can testify of it. I've also come to learn to love others .. To forget yourself and to serve others. I love it. You're not the only one going through something and honestly you receive pure happiness from serving othes, being there for them when they need you.
'paths are different for everyone, and forks always lead you somewhere. who knows where you'll be lead, but it is a good place. much better than you imagined.' As for me.. My path has just begun.. I'm onto a new journey and it pains me looking back but it also pumps me up , gets me excited for my future & what kind of woman I'll become. God has a plan for me & I know I can trust him with whatever it may be, what challenges will be thrown at me & I know I won't be alone to face them .
Gee.. Not only do I struggle at starting my ramble of nonsense but I suck at bringing it to a close.
I'm in a good place now. I'm blessed.
And as niki manaj might say it "no I'm not lucky I'm blessed, yes"