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I stare at this picture and still can not get over how beautiful it is, and to think it was taken by an iPhone. please, lets hold the round of applause till end.

 

Any typical college weekend in Saint George.. the night is young at the hour of 11, the smell of alcohol kills the air, drugs are passed around and desperate girls seem to end up getting laid in a guys room or at the edge of a toilet seat. This particular weekend my roommate left town and lucky me got the room to myself. never felt better *giggles* In my head, this weekend was going to be better than most. Unfortunately ..there was a little twist and listening to the spirit was definitely one to save me.

I never thought i'd ever be in a situation where i'd have to choose between staying with friends while they drank or to get up, leave an spend the night alone ..but last night was that time. Listening to the still small voice ended up getting me out of a citation worth 300$ and saving two friends along the way. It amazes me. I know in my heart God watches over us and works in mysterious ways.

 

This weekend has also thrown me into a flashback tornado. High School students posting their homecoming pics like come on you're killin me! I WANT TO BE THERE walking up to Orem High School in heels a beautiful dress and a handsome guy to escort me. Not only that..but to dance like a goon with best friends and other crazy high school students. honestly..College dances are NOT the same. booty booty booty everywhere. Now I know what you're saying " what did you except?" ok, well sorry.. sometimes ya, I'd rather stay a child for that reason. none of this booty shiz.

It also takes me back to the homecoming football game and the guy I seemed to love had actually won homecoming king. I know..too cool for me. Honestly Honestly, those are the moments I lived for.

 

For my future husband, wherever he may be lookin fab and too attractive.. you better be able to handle how weird I am. watch me dance like an idiot and maybe even jump in and dance like a goose with me.

Honestly, I know you've all been waiting for this moment where you can finally put your hands together and give me that good ol' round of applause. Would it be bad to say that I actually don't even remember why I'm asking  for this round of applause and that I'm too lazy to scroll up and read why?

maybe the fact that it's four oclock int the morning ... or nah.. *falls asleep typing*

the weekend

Frozen, absolutely frozen.. Jaw dropped to the floor .. In absolute shock there I stood watching a complete stranger run off into the unknown streets of Salt Lake City with my iPhone. 

At 3:00 in the afternoon on this beautiful Sunday my friends from the beginning of Jr high came to pick me and my roommate up to go visit the breathe taking salt lake temple. The car ride was filled with laughs, things escalating from 0 to 100 real fast and speakers booming with with lovely tunes of Sam smith. 

Visiting the temple was amazing. Like I said before.. BREATHE TAKING. It was honestly a completely different feeling.. The worldly things didn't matter and there was an overwhelming rush of happiness. Unfortunately time flew by & my roommate and I had to make our way home, back to the red rocks of Saint George. Crossing the street I noticed a guy with red curly hair behind us, not thinking much of it I kept walking in the hot sun to our car. As we came to another cross walk it realized the guy was STILL behind us. Kind of sketchy but honestly didn't think much about it. When we finally arrived to the car the guy stops with us as well and tells us a sob story about how he's not from around here and that he needs to get ahold of his mom& if there was any possible way he could use one of our phones to call her. I look over at my friends and I can see in their eyes.. They aren't letting him use their phones..so I hand over my phone to let a stranger use the phone. He "calls" his mom and as he says his final words "ok goodbye" he runs. Not just run but.. Books it. Faster than ever. Frozen, absolutely frozen.. Jaw dropped to the floor .. In absolute shock there I stood watching a complete stranger run off into the unknown streets of Salt Lake City with my iPhone. UHHH WHAT?! 

Did that actually happen to me?! Yes!! I didn't know what to do.. Cry, scream.. 

Luckily two guys saw the scum bag run off with my phone so they chased him down. Honestly I didn't know what else to do but to communicate with both my fathers. The one In heaven and my dad. I said a prayer with COMPLETE faith asking him for guidance & then it called my dad. Coincidence he was sitting at the computer ? He locked my phone and was able to guide us to where my phone was.

Today I am blessed. Blessed to know I have a father in heaven who hears my prayers and can answer them immediately. Blessed to have a father who answers my calls and has the time to help me when I need. Blessed for friends who care enough about me to chase after a complete stranger not knowing whether or not he has a weapon on him. Blessed that I was able to get my phone back because of my amazing friend that chased him down until he gave back my phone. Blessed for the people who didn't even know me to stop whatever they were doing and help chase after the guy. 

Ya it was just my phone.. Maybe not a big deal to others but honestly I was scared and it was such a crazy experience! I would have never thought that'd happen to me. I love everyone in my life. I'm also so blessed I got to spend my weekend with my roommate and bond with her. She's the sweetest girl and can't wait to make more memories with her and all the people who come into my life this year.

HONESTLY. I'm blessed.

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It's never too late to express your thoughts is it? I honestly never know where to start to be honest. My whole motivation to write tonight was actually me reading hunter koffords blog and thinking.. wow , you literally spoke my mind these past few weeks. 

Now for some you may be thinking.. Ok who is hunter and others may have actually read her post already! She's writes beautifully and I highly suggest you read her blog. I will be quoting her a lot tonight because she says everything so spot on, you can't really beat it.

P.s. Enjoy a few vsco friendly pictures of mine.

For these past summer months I've been in a place of change on so many different levels. Some things harder than others but all together this BIG change.. Which you could say.. I'm an expert at. Not. I actually struggle with this because I love consistency. I like to know what I have ahead of me, what I'm going to be fighting for and everytime I get an unexpected challenge ..bam! ( but don't we all) 'I have learned that things happen when you least expect them, and more often than not, when you don't want them to.' I know God put these challenges in my life and had a purpose to their timing.. I may not know why , but I know that in some way I'm going to grow from these experiences in good time and that they are shaping me for my future. I already know that I have grown so much these past few months.. Learning to be there for others and even myself, knowing that it's ok to be alone.

'I have been able to look deep inside myself and pull strength from crevices i didn't even know existed. i have been able to be the crutch for others, and in return, be my own. nothing about life is easy, . i've learned that it is OKAY to feel. it's okay to allow yourself wiggle room. it's okay to follow your heart, even if it is different from something you've normally done or something someone else feels you should do.' I guess this was the time that God said "it's time to get to know who you are" and to be honest, I've come to love and be comfortable with myself more than I ever have. I love where I am now! 

I couldn't be more grateful for the people in my life who are constantly fighting for me. They are your true friends, they are the type of people I absolutely look up to & strive to be like them daily. Sometimes you also have those people in your life who come and go.. Whether you like it or not. *bleep* happens. (Yes, I'm sure you all know what the bleep is..forgive my language choice haha) something that hunter(blogger) said that I absolutely love is.. 'sometimes, you have to give all you can to someone and love them so fully and expect nothing in return. expectations can damage a soul, give your all to someone so they can know what it feels like to be fought for, and in return, someone will fight for you.'

Things come and go in their own time 'I've learned that as long as you give all you can, things will eventually make their way back to you- in their own time and place, and in their own way. '

All I do know .. Is our father in heaven has a plan for us.. He will boot the people out who are hurting it an bring in those that will make it better. Haha why does that sound so awful. Forgive me.. He has something better in store for us. He knows us and cares SO much for us!! I've also have built a strong relationship with our father and savior. Words can not fully express how much I love the gospel , god , our brother and savior. We are not alone. I KNOW FOR A FACT. I also know.. GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS! I can testify of it. I've also come to learn to love others .. To forget yourself and to serve others. I love it. You're not the only one going through something and honestly you receive pure happiness from serving othes, being there for them when they need you.

'paths are different for everyone, and forks always lead you somewhere. who knows where you'll be lead, but it is a good place. much better than you imagined.' As for me.. My path has just begun.. I'm onto a new journey and it pains me looking back but it also pumps me up , gets me excited for my future & what kind of woman I'll become. God has a plan for me & I know I can trust him with whatever it may be, what challenges will be thrown at me & I know I won't be alone to face them . 

Gee.. Not only do I struggle at starting my ramble of nonsense but I suck at bringing it to a close.

I'm in a good place now. I'm blessed.

And as niki manaj might say it "no I'm not lucky I'm blessed, yes"

I'm in psychology .. Learning about things I already know.. But is it bad to say my psych teacher is a fine ten?? Wait..shh! You didn't see that

Onto some late Dixie news.. My friend got hit by a car!! What?!???? I KNOW!! extremely random! I sat with him most of the day yesterday keeping him company & to be honest.. That's all I want to do right now! His face is beat and soo swollen. Think of swollen & then think of a whole new level of swollen! It's sad to see him in pain.. I wish I could take it away from him. So I'll be keeping updates on my "baby A" (it's his nick name)

Even though he's all banged up he still get up and made me one of his smoothies! Such a sweet soul 

any wayys.. Back to the story.. Our local missionaries came over and at the end we went down to give Andrew a blessing. And can I just say I LOVE MISSIONARIES!! I love everything about the gospel, the feeling.. HAPPINESS! I love it! I can't get over how much I love the gospel. It moves me! 

Shoot, I should probably get back to focussing! Ta ta for now. Xoxo