It was 2 years ago. 730 days here and gone. The life of my sweet and innocent little brother returned to heavenly fathers presence. How lucky for them to get him back! I can't wait to hold him in my arms and just cry. Every tear. A tear of love and joy!
I still remember the day so crystal clear as if it were yesterday. Driving in the passenger seat. Last day of the term! January 14. Great grades. My love life was going good. Exited to see the guy I liked. Everything was simply going perfect. But then the phone call. The call was my mom. She was so sad and crying so hard I couldnt understand what she said. So I passed the phone to my dad. The look on his face was worried. But in my head..I really didn't worry about it at all. My mind was focused on what a great day January 14 was going to be. When my dad hung up he turned to me and said ..your brother isn't doing good. To me I thought.. Aww my little buddy taking another trip to the hospital. I wasn't worried. He always made it out perfect. About 10 minutes later my mom called and said he passed away and asked my dad to meet her so we could go up to primary children's. my heart sunk. This day had finally come. I couldn't completely grasp that he was gone. I cried but in my mind It wasn't reality. He wasn't gone to me.
When I got in the car with my mom everyone sobbing. The saddest thing to hear was when my mom called my grandma and said he had passed ..she had just woken up and when she heard my mom. All she did was sobbed so loud. My heart broke. That's when I realized he was really gone. My phone only had a little bit of battery. So I contacted my friend mari to tell her what had just happened and she let the guy I liked know. He promised he'd wait for me later to comfort me.
As we got to the hospital. I was shaking. I couldn't control it. The smell..I can still remember so perfectly!. The nurse came to us and looked at us and said I'm sorry and took us to the room. Where my little baby brother layed In my step dads arms.
His eyes were closed. His lips a little apart. His skin was yellow. Wrapped in a blanket. I cried unbelievably hard. My stepdad told us to feel him. Touch him everywhere so we can remember how he felt forever. And to this day. 730 days later I can still remember exactly how he felt. His thick but soft hair that flowed in one direction, his small soft hands. His flat smooth back. His tiny tiny toes.
After spending a few hours with him. It was time to let him go.
Later I had to go back to school to audition for a class. {remember my crush? How he said he'd be waiting for me?..ya he never stayed. } but I walked into the school seeing all my friends ..I cried when they all gave me the biggest hugs. None of them really knew what I went through until..I remember this so perfect.. When Keian saw me..he walked on over with his uke and just hugged me. The best hug I could possibly ever get In my life. I felt so awkward because I didn't really know him to well. And my tears were making a puddle on his shirt. I was so embarrassed but that hug was the most comforting thing I had gotten all day. I later found out from his sister Madi that they had also lost a little sister! Come to find out joaquin and his sister went to the same school! That day I just fell in love. Somebody who I could talk to that cared. He & his sister helped me through it all! I miss my baby boy& can't wait ..like you guys have no IDEa!! I can not wait!!! To hear his giggle again!! Oh but I do know he watches over me. Especially when I'm going through a hard time and ~somewhere over the rainbow comes on~ ahh I miss you! Ill see you soon! {somewhere over the rainbow}
I love you!
Sincerely me Desi!
