Just a lil something.

Well last night I wrote a blog post that magically disappeared!..what the poo. Not even cool. But it happened. There's nuffin I can do about it.
So..I couldn't love my friends more. They are THE BEST! Ever had any amazing friends that just make life so much easier?.. Ya well my 2 niggnugs are Connie and Valentina! And..Franco!! They know exactly how to make me smile errrrr day. So I'm really bored but I just wanna write some confessions or things you might not know about me..cuz the post that you should be reading..thought it'd be funny to not publish and disappear. So here it goes.. 1) I like baking. Especially when my mom and I do I together. 2) I get red for no reason sometimes. 3) my dad and I use to play hide n go seek and if always hide in the same spot. I always want to go back into time just so I could find some crazy hiding spot so he wouldn't be able to find me. He'd always teach me the coolest things too. One night he got a kick ball and shined a light on it and taught me about the earth and the sun& how it spins. I was amazed. 4) i love stormy nights and days. My imagination just soars. 5) I focus in school and don't talk..which makes me shy..so now I'm "shy" ..but once you actually hang out with me. I'm really not that shy. I talk a lot, unless you're extremely handsome! 6) I hate when people tell me I look like somebody. 7) I love singing. I sing all the days. But one day my dad heard me singing in the shower and he recorded me singing and then I saw he recorded it and got embarrassed so I haven't sang in front of anyone since. 8) I love guys that can pull off the scroungy beird. So attractive. 9) I've never known a stronger person than my mom. I look up to her
10) I'm going to be a missionary when I'm 19! I can not wait to serve. Like I want to serve and preach everyday. My heart is so full of the gospel. I love it. So ya. That it for now. Over and out.
Maholo
Sincerely me Desi

edit it sunday

 This is Elle Fillmore and Madi Palica.

they are so gorgeous.

AND hilarious!

Run into the night.

As I walked into the dark night I realized how much I just want to run away with the street lights on and the misty foggy roads that you can barley see through with the temp just as it was tonight. Not too cool and not to warm. And when I say run away I just mean adventure, not running away from anything in particular. But right as I got to my door step there was something inside of me..the child in me, wanted to book it and see how far I could run and explore & just think about errrything. But I decided it probably wouldn't be such a good idea. As I type this i still have the deepest desire to open my door and run into the dark.
Anyways, being the tiger I am I went to the orem high game tonight and we won timp! Yeah you heard me right! We won! I'm sure you're not surprised though because orem does rock! I have a story I wish I could type!..I want to tell so bad! Ush. But for now it's only a story for my 2 bestfriends to hear. No worries no worries, it'll be told someday.
Well guys its a full moon! Grab that special someone and give um a kiss!! But seriously..make sure it's Your special someone or it might just be a little awk. #wordofadvice
Song of the day is ~love letter by shwayze ft catteracs and dev! Check it out.

Maholo
Good job tigers!
Sincerely me Desi.

P.s I made a skeleton shirt.
No big deal.

Not to brag

A star falls from the sky and into your hands. Then it seeps through your veins and swims inside your blood and becomes every part of you. And then you have to put it back into the sky. And it's the most painful thing you'll ever have to do and that you've ever done. But what's yours is yours. Whether it’s up in the sky or here in your hands. And one day, it'll fall from the sky and hit you in the head real hard and that time, you won't have to put it back in the sky again.
I miss you Joaquin.

Treasure! That is what you are! You're my golden star! If you could see me right now id be singing that song! ~treasure by Bruno mars.

Alright well. Hey! So yesterday.. Not to brag or anything but I went into my old photo class to get a yearbook application and my old photo teacher said that she entered my photo into an all around high school photo show! I felt pretty proud of myself! So she told me to come in after school to talk to me about what I needed to do. So I had to write an artist statement on my picture and ya.. So I did that and I'm in! So I feel pretty accomplished!!
*pat myself on the back*
Then at 3 ish I walked myself home because my friend was lifting and he forgot to call and ask if I needed a ride. So I stepped into the cold again. Wishing oh so badly that I could have a car! Ya..I got my license n all but I'm just missing that very important thing..the car. But honestly I really liked walking home today. The weather was perfect to me! I love looking on the wet ground after a little sprinkle of rain! And.. This is kinda silly but..in my head I tell myself about my life so I can get ideas on what'll sound ok to put on my blog. And..I crack myself up sometimes and think.."wow! That needs to be published or something" haha k anyways I'm turnin n twisting and flowin my body through the wind in dance! I love it! I have a friend named Connie & oh man! She's a hoot. We could defiantly be comedians when we are together! Oh and we are gunna be missionary companions too! {jk. I wish!} but she helps me through so much! Her jokes and her laughs get me! Being with her gets my mind off of things! It's always a good time!:) we'll make a rap for you guys to watch k?
Also to Any guys that might be reading this. Girls loveee it when guys open the car door for them! Golden sticker to those guys!
Live your life to the fullest!
Maholo lovelies
Sincerely me Desi

P.s. here's the picture that's entered into the show! And the little caption I wrote for it!
You were never meant to be tied up and bound in a cage. You were meant to fly. Honestly just let go of the troubles you carry everyday upon your shoulders and enjoy life! You were meant to shine!

The lake.

{THE GREAT UTAH LAKE}

This place is amazingly gorgeous in the winter!

AND IM OBSESSED WITH SILHOUETTES

a shoot with 

Elle Fillmore

&

Madison Palica

Unreal beauty.

Sydney Jacobs & Sara Seaman

I'm back

1 Nephi 17:50>>> I just saw that on twitter {yes..i do have a twitter}and..I looked it up! And you Guys should do the same because it's just ..simply amazing! Period
Guess who's back from Vegas?..yep! This beauty queen!
I can't even explain how nice it is to jump into my pink fluffy floral covered bed and just sleep. One word for yuh.. HEAVENLyyy! There is a downer to this beautiful story.. It's about one million degrees below freezing here in utah. I'm not ok with that. But hey. Like they say ~you can't change the weather. Mmph
Yeh yeh yeh.. so anyways
One thing my little noggin learned today was dont beat yourself up from the past. Don't live on the past because then you won't be able to MOVE ON! I know you probably see this everywhere you go but seriously just think about it. {This is your minute to think......}Start fresh and move yo bootie on!!Do you smell that?! Mmmmh ya! It's the smell of a new start..so lets be the best we can ya?:) Lets make this world spin faster. Like seriously! See how nice and happy you can be once you wake up! Although,waking up..it's pretty hard and at times can be a grumpy thing. It is every morning for me. But AFTER all that waking up part just be happy. Simple. Say a prayer and you're on your way to a great day!
#confession ..I'm not pretty enough to go to orem high. I swear..every girl that walks past me is beyond gorgeous. Is there a word for that? Ya anyways! Just thought I'd get that out of muh boomin system.

Anyways you're all amazing.and to all those that text me about my blog & those that comment..I love you all! They make my day.
Peace out nigg nuggs. And have a fantastico dayo!
~just add an "o" to an English word and it sounds Hispanic right?~
Mahalo.
Sincerely me Desi!
P.s here's some pictures of the trip

~A hair past a freckle

Oh shoot. It's a little bit lot past my bed time! Because...I took a long long shower! You know that whole frog in the boiling water analogy? Psh. I'm that frog. I just keep cranking the handle to warmer water every so often! But then I have to tell myself ..hey des you kinda need those brain cells right now. You're still a little young! Just sayin.
So today I took a photoshoot with Elle Fillmore and Madi palica! It was so much fun! Absolutely gorgeous girls! Ill post all the pictures tomorrow! We went out to utah lake because its frozen! And dude. Capital P-R-I-M-E pictures! So ya that's that! You will see those soon!
Onto the next matter of business! ..well guys my toes are pointing and my body is twirling and I'm back in motion. Yep! I'm in dance again! And this time it's at school! It's only been one day and I've had the funnest time. Never realized I'd miss it that much! And..SHOUTOUT my grams! G ma Sheila! Anyone wanna guess her age? Anyone? Anyone?
....{3 second pause} ...YES! You got it right!! She is 69! Love you grams!
You're the best!

Alright guys. Well! What can I say?..I had SO much I was going to write about!! Grr..I hate when I can't remember! Oh well!! Tomorrow!

Mahalo lovelies!
Sincerely me Desi!

P.s. Here's a sneakpeek shot of the photoshoot today!

January 14 2011

It was 2 years ago. 730 days here and gone. The life of my sweet and innocent little brother returned to heavenly fathers presence. How lucky for them to get him back! I can't wait to hold him in my arms and just cry. Every tear. A tear of love and joy!

I still remember the day so crystal clear as if it were yesterday. Driving in the passenger seat. Last day of the term! January 14. Great grades. My love life was going good. Exited to see the guy I liked. Everything was simply going perfect. But then the phone call. The call was my mom. She was so sad and crying so hard I couldnt understand what she said. So I passed the phone to my dad. The look on his face was worried. But in my head..I really didn't worry about it at all. My mind was focused on what a great day January 14 was going to be. When my dad hung up he turned to me and said ..your brother isn't doing good. To me I thought.. Aww my little buddy taking another trip to the hospital. I wasn't worried. He always made it out perfect. About 10 minutes later my mom called and said he passed away and asked my dad to meet her so we could go up to primary children's. my heart sunk. This day had finally come. I couldn't completely grasp that he was gone. I cried but in my mind It wasn't reality. He wasn't gone to me.
When I got in the car with my mom everyone sobbing. The saddest thing to hear was when my mom called my grandma and said he had passed ..she had just woken up and when she heard my mom. All she did was sobbed so loud. My heart broke. That's when I realized he was really gone. My phone only had a little bit of battery. So I contacted my friend mari to tell her what had just happened and she let the guy I liked know. He promised he'd wait for me later to comfort me.
As we got to the hospital. I was shaking. I couldn't control it. The smell..I can still remember so perfectly!. The nurse came to us and looked at us and said I'm sorry and took us to the room. Where my little baby brother layed In my step dads arms.
His eyes were closed. His lips a little apart. His skin was yellow. Wrapped in a blanket. I cried unbelievably hard. My stepdad told us to feel him. Touch him everywhere so we can remember how he felt forever. And to this day. 730 days later I can still remember exactly how he felt. His thick but soft hair that flowed in one direction, his small soft hands. His flat smooth back. His tiny tiny toes.
After spending a few hours with him. It was time to let him go.
Later I had to go back to school to audition for a class. {remember my crush? How he said he'd be waiting for me?..ya he never stayed. } but I walked into the school seeing all my friends ..I cried when they all gave me the biggest hugs. None of them really knew what I went through until..I remember this so perfect.. When Keian saw me..he walked on over with his uke and just hugged me. The best hug I could possibly ever get In my life. I felt so awkward because I didn't really know him to well. And my tears were making a puddle on his shirt. I was so embarrassed but that hug was the most comforting thing I had gotten all day. I later found out from his sister Madi that they had also lost a little sister! Come to find out joaquin and his sister went to the same school! That day I just fell in love. Somebody who I could talk to that cared. He & his sister helped me through it all! I miss my baby boy& can't wait ..like you guys have no IDEa!! I can not wait!!! To hear his giggle again!! Oh but I do know he watches over me. Especially when I'm going through a hard time and ~somewhere over the rainbow comes on~ ahh I miss you! Ill see you soon! {somewhere over the rainbow}
I love you!


Sincerely me Desi!

Not thy will. But thine be done

When I walked into seminary today. Automatically I felt the spirit. My heart was filled with love and my mind was focused on what I was about to learn. ~the atonement

"He lives to bless me with his love. He lives to plead for me above. He lives to guide me with his eye. He lives to hide away my fears. He lives to wipe away my tears. He lives to calm my troubled heart.he lives to love me to the end . I KNOW that my redeemer lives" Jesus Christ atoned for every humans misdeed. "Abba, father,all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me" {D&C 19:16-19} says he suffered these things for ALL so we don't have to suffer if we repent. But if we don't we will suffer even as he did. The greatest of all trembled because of pain.
One thing that popped out was "ALL things are possible unto thee" anything is possible. I love it. With a capital L!

•• one cannot help wondering how many of those drops of precious blood each of us may be responsible for •• ~ James E. Faust.

Jesus Christ knows how it feels to be rejected. Bullied. Abused. He knows what it feels like to be addicted to drugs. He knows how it feels to loose a loved one. He knows how it feels to have cancer it any sickness. He knows how it feels when you have a broken heart. He experienced ABSOLuTLEY EVERYTHING! He bled through every single pour. He took away our sins. Now it is our duty. To use the atonement and repent so we can return home with honor.
The enabling power of the atonement of Christ strengthens us to do things we could never do on our own! Oh it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me.
Just knowing he was whipped and betrayed by his people. A thorn crown pressed onto his precious most innocent head. Huge thick rusty nails nailed into the palm of his hands and feet so he could hang on a cross. And in the very end he says "father FORGIVE them. For they know not what they have done. I LOVE them. No. He wasn't thinking about complaining.. He LOVED them so much! He just asked his father to forgive them. His love is unconditional!

Though we may feel lost and without compass; gods love encompasses us completely!
I will rise when he calls my name!

Sincerely,
Me, Desi

ASL

Aspen. Liv. Symone

I finally made it to the end in Photo. Assignments completed and now i actually have time to look at the millions of pictures I have. I have SO many of these girls and have only gotten to about 10 of their pictures. i love these pictures because of the colors i got! Their clothes match perfectly with the background! Beautiful girls! 

 Aspen! Happy Late Birthday!! I still remember when we were the best of friends! My favorite sevie:) cant believe youre growing up so fast!! Love yuh girl!!:)

~Roger that

There is a big purple room. {are you getting this?..here close your eyes} so big purple room..with music blasting from a small speaker that is connected to an iPod. Then there is a girl laying on her floor. And that girl happens to be ..{drum roll please}.. ME

Hey guys. Well today I'm going to write about the weird things that happened to me in school today. Starting off with number one {this'll be much better if you read it how I say it. Imagine me as one of those rad announcer people! ..cummon don't be shy now, read it like that. Even you grandma! I know youre reading this. wink wink. Haha} anyways, numberrrrr one with: the girl that wiggles her ears when she writes.. K I'm not even kidding you. When the tip of her number 2 pencil touches her paper ..her small little ears that are tucked a little behind her hair,but poke out just a tad..wiggle! Yea.. I had to rub my eyes to make sure what I was seeing was real! Nummmmberrr 2!: the boy who makes wishes with his eyelashes. So I was doin my o'l pal a favor by taking an eyelash off his face for him and oh did he get mad!.."I wanted that.!..you put it on your finger and blow it off and make a wish" sorrrryy. Franco. Alrighty.numberrr 3: the most silentest silence ever..and then you start hearing people's hungry stomach moan and groan. *grrrrrerrr ..mmmhggg..grrrr* literally. That sound all class period.
Then last but not least there's that girl that doesn't know how to laugh, just snort. This girls laugh was out of this world. Maybe just snorty world. Oh don't get me wrong. It was funny at first!.. Gave me a giggle of two until I realized..ok. She can't laugh. She's a snort laugher. Snort..snort. Woah girl. I have a friend that laughs anddd here and there, there happens to be a snort. But not this one.
Ok and this was just a topper of my day ~the guy that'll go through shark infested waters just to be with you.
Yep..idk guys. He's one of a kind. Juss sayin. And I bet NONE of you know who I'm even talking about. Maybe one. If Val is reading this:)..
Buh Buh Buh butterflies!
Guys wanna hear a catchy song!?..
~ cheerleader by omi
It's great! Check itttttt ✔
Oh and can I just say...2 term you're killing me !!!!
It's cold and my hand is having a seizure .
Roger that! Over and out!
Sincerely me desi!

Well hello!

Interesting fact: did you know?.. that people use to think that tomatoes were poisinous? they would call them ~bloody apples (for some reason whenever i say that i say it with an accent..it pops) and when your true love would cheat on you or lie to you about another girl, you would give them a bloody apple because they were poisonous. Just thought I'd bring that to your attention:)

! Wanna know something? I love exersizing. I've been so motivated and exited to just work out. Yep.
Oh and..I've had Pinterest for the longest time. Seriously. It's been on my phone just sitting all alone forever & today I looked at that poor little felluh and thought.. Hey I'm going to check you out. So I did and I like it! So yes. I officially have a Pinterest now. So you can check out my board or whatever they call it. Haha I'm still not sure. So ya:)
Also, for Christmas my step mum decided it would be nice NOT to get me clothes for Christmas. So my dad took me out shopping and dang did we get some good deals. Like the cutest jeans for 13.00 and the original price was..70.00 so that was fun to spend some time with my dad! He's one funny guy lemme tell yuh!
I definitely don't wanna go to school tomorrow! I can not wait for next semester to get new classes!
So ya:)..sorry for such the lame blogs lately! They'll get better. Pinky promises to all of you!
Happy dreaded Monday tomorrow!:)
Smile.
Sincerely me desi
Oh and p.s be ready to see my with a bum or ponytail on the top of my head this week. Trying something new anddd I'm not wanting to get up extra early to impress anyone this week:)

my life in a music video?..woahhhh. haha i love this song. T swift lookin a lil iffy..

~Just a thought

So I haven't read my patriarticle blessing since..the dinosaurs were around. It's not good. Cuz you're suppose to read it a lot. So last night I decided hey. I'm gunna read it. So I did and one thing that stood out the most is ~make christ the center of your life. And since I've been so caught up in tons of other things that aren't what I should be focusing on first. Every thing that was bugging me disappeared& my heart was healed! It's so amazing what The Lord can do for us when we need his help. He's always there for us. ALWAYS. No matter what. Just saying make Christ the center of my life every thing that's going on that doesn't matter seriously. SERIOUSLY goes away, you're just left with total comfort and happiness! Wooo! I love the gospel and all the wise words the scriptures provide. You find yourself and who you truely are! So ya:) words can't even describe the joy I'm feeling! Ok I'm out!
~make Christ the center of your life
Sincerely ,
Me desi

only the sweetest girl

{Diana}

Ok where do I begin with this girl. This girl is such a sweet example to me. She always knows how to bring a smile to my face! Shes super smart and I envy that! When I first saw her she beamed. She is such an amazing daughter of God and is true, honest, virtuous and the best sister. I would know cuz shes a sister at heart! Love this girl to bits and pieces! 

Two.towzand& tirteen.

I sure am gunna miss my long hours of sleep on this Christmas break. Sleepin in till 1 every day! I slept in till 2:30 today. Uhm holy cow. School would have just gotten out if it was a regular day! Call me lazy bones but hey. I'm a night owl I stay up late. I wouldn't really say that's a good thing tho. Cuz when you have sleepovers and you watch a scary movie& you're the last one awake!..scary shiz.just laying there as the screeching violins play and it's right as its getting to the intense part and you go to grab your friend and realize..oh.ha. They are ASLEEP. Dun dun dun! But hallelujah there is no school tomorrow!! I thought there was. But lucky me there isn't!:)
Any ways happy New Years!! Hope ya all made your new year resolutions. My sister thought of something pretty neat. She's a little blogger herself you could say. But on paper, that she never collects. She just writes her thoughts and leaves them where ever she feels. This paper I found was right next to the sink. It said "my New Years resolution is I'm going to write down a lesson I learned everyday" her first lesson she learned was. ~don't ever drink old cider that has been in your storage room for a year. It tastes like hand sanitizer.
Hmm. Ok thanks bel for that lesson. Hope you guys can also learn from her cider experience as well haha. Wanna know something about my sister? She's a major sleep talker!! It's so funny to listen to her talk. She can get pretty darn sassy! She even adds in some hand snaps to! Sometimes you can talk to her and she'll have a conversation with you. Sorrrrryyy. Totally off topic!
K..soooo I'm really. Like realllyyyyy. So badly wanting to shoot a music video! I can't stop thinking about it! I wanna do a remix type of song. Like one of dj ear worms songs. If you are interested in helping with this I need: singers! DANCERS(of all kind)! Extras!photographers& Creative minds and ideas for the different scenes to make it extra unique!! It'll be so fun!... My gears are turning. Help me out ppl!
So ya. Holla.
Happy New Year.
Xoxox
Sincerely, me desi