This week was one of the most unexpected weeks of my mission. Filled with numerous amounts of pure joy and sadness. #missionarylife #thebest I don't even know where to begin. my companion and I have dedicated our WHOLE souls into getting things done here in Morristown and the way Heavenly Father needs it to be..and we are only successful because of Him.
I have officially waged my all out war against Satan. I have laid all my weapons down against God. I can't even begin to tell you how much I am not going to let Satan win.
It's actually REALLY weird to think I am almost done training my "baby" in the mission. Our goal for these past two transfers was to talk to EVERYONE and to LOVE them. Weird right? To love a random person on the street and LOVE them..well, it was very hard at first actually..BUT now I just want to give everyone I meet my whole soul. I want them to know how AMAZING this gospel is!!!! I want them to find peace when they meet their maker. I've never been so driven in my life. But as usual..where there is more righteousness there is more opposition..
This week just made me think of my dad and I..how we'd always talk about when we are about to take a big step in our lives..Satan attacks. After an amazing baptismal interview with our investigator..things only went down hill. Satan attacked with full force. Our investigator got a call that his family was going to be murdered. His uncles told him they wouldn't accept him as a member of their family if he joined the church and later that week his brother committed suicide. He finally came to the conclusion that if he was going to be baptized his life was only going to get harder. He began to lie and to drink again. Which tore my little heart into a million pieces. It's weird being a missionary sometimes..the love you have for people is so real. You'd do anything for them. It gives you the smallest glimpse of what Heavenly Father must feel for us.
After trying to hold in my emotions from the week I found myself in a puddle of tears. My heart hurt and sank deep into my chest. But as I was crying the words of this song came to my mind " When I am down and all my soul so weary When troubles come and my heart burdened be Then I am still and wait here in the silence..until you come and sit a while with me. You raise me up so I can stand on mountains. You raise me up to walk on stormy seas. I am strong when I am on your shoulders. You raise me up to more than I can be " Heavenly Father comforted me..telling me I had done my part! That he had a plan and his plan will ALWAYS WIN. I have officially waged my all out war against Satan. He will never get me down. Even if I do I am always going to remember that
GODS PLAN IS THE WINNING PLAN.
And that I always need to do my part..even if it's hard and painful. So what did we do?? we put sticky notes all over our home and our car motivating us to kick Satan in the butt!! He will never win!! It's actually pretty pathetic to think of his power..because God is soooo much more powerful!! My companion told me that if we could see Satan we'd be like " really?? This is the thing that caused the earth to shake and crumble and caused so many to fall?? Always remember that God is all powerful! That he is our strength!!
On the flip side of all this.. After running into an old investigator and teaching him it began to rain BUCKETS and BUCKETS. If you know me I was in straight heaven!! We walked all the way back to our car and not a spot on us was dry. We were DRENCHED. Best day of my life! God is good!! We also have a baptism coming up next week! One day we were bored of knocking doors so we decided to go into a laundry mat and pretend we were waiting for our clothes and talked to a guy about how much Jesus loved him..AND NOW HES GETTING BAPTIZED!! We are so excited. We are so happy to see the change in countenance. He is already sharing the gospel with SOOO many people. God is gooooood!!
I love our Heavenly Father so much!! God is real. I ever so testify of Gods MIRACLES. He KNOWS. ITS LITERALLY THAT SIMPLE. He loves us!! He puts people in our paths for a reason. I know that we are here to love..to learn to love..to BECOME like our savior. I've never known this feeling in my life and will probably never be able to explain the joy that comes with it. " we must remember that those mortals we meet in the parking lots, offices, elevators and elsewhere are that portion of mankind God has given us to love and to serve" - President Spencer W. I have a strong testimony that while the road ahead of us may not be free of challenges, it will be a happy one, as long as we trust in Heavenly Father and continue to try to live as we know we should.
When life’s perils thick confound you,
Put his arms unfailing round you.
God be with you till we meet again.
Keep love’s banner floating o’er you.
I love you all! Have a great week!!