Waking up from a dream only feeling my heart ache is the worst. It is as if someone is squeezing it super hard..but not to the point of breaking it. In a way, torturing my heart. Kind of like those balloons that have air in them; you sit on it and bounce up and down attempting to pop the balloon with your weight but it just doesn't pop.

it is burdensome knowing that I can not send a message to my best friend knowing that the message could appear on a bright little screen and that he could respond within seconds. It is difficile that we can only communicate for a good five minutes, once every week.

Although I KNOW he is where he needs to be it still hurts my little heart that beats inside of me.

sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is his voice saying " you got this, babe"

vent about missing my main squeeze is over *phew*