At this very moment.. It's Halloween. The one Holiday you can run around scaring the shiz out of people. Please excuse my French. Right now I am getting the "shiz" scared out of. Someone is literally shaking my door handle and foolish me opened the door to see no one there..but the scary part is it KEEPS HAPPENING! SOS. on the real though because my roommate is not here to be scared with me so this is serious. Tehe. Jk i'll be safe. but out of 10 how scared I am right now is a real 100.

So...basically I was going to write this deep well thought out post and my whole train of thought left me because someone decided it'd be funny to scare me. not cool..not cool at all.

Right now I would LOVE to spill my guts out about the power of prayer! HOLY GUACAMOLE. where do I even begin? Let me just say I can testify that Heavenly Father hears your prayers. promise. I can even pinky promise you. Even with the smallest problems I am struggling with I know that I can get on my knees with a humble heart and turn to my father in heaven and pour out my soul. And he truly listens to everything you have to say. this past month I've been struggling with so many things..trying to keep up living as a college student. I started seeing so many little changes throughout my day. Seeing his hand, leading me and guiding me. AND I LOVE IT. One of my closest friends is getting ready to turn in his mission papers and I have SO many mixed emotions about it. 1 being IM SO SO SO SO PROUD of him! I can not believe it. It's a good feeling. I'm also so excited for him. All the things he's going to experience. I can not wait to hear about them. But then I get super sad thinking I he won't be a text away. BUT I KNOW I KNOW IT'S ALL FOR THE GOOD. I'm proud of him. truly. He's been such an example to me lately. I look up to him in so many ways.

 

 

Me + Keian Mcgeeee Oct. 2014

 

Anyhoo. Maybe one night I'll get the time to actually sit down and write my guts out but tonight..is just not the night. But for now..xoxo.

 

I've been deprived of writing lately and I absolutely hate it. My mind has been brimming with abounding thoughts and when I finally get the time to sit down to write..my mind is bare.
College for me has been a love hate thing. I live in a whole different environment from where I grew up..and like I said it's a love hate thing. I've never wanted to live and grow closer to Christ than now AND I have also never had so much temptation thrown at me. I sat down on my college sized twin bed to array all the thoughts in my head. I was so defeated on WHY there is so much evil around me? Why I can't seem to find someone who strives to live the same standards I do. there was no answer. I couldn't come up with anything. I cried out in my heart "why? why?" silly right? Later that week I attended church, It was fast and testimony meeting (my fav). A young woman walked up to the pulpit..with uneasiness in her voice words began to flow out of her mouth. She shared a story about when she was a freshman and how she realized that coming here to this college was hard for her. She struggled with many temptations and hardships but then she began to turn it around..she said "It was a test to prove myself." and right there I knew God had answered my cry "why? why?"

This weekend I was blessed to attend General Conference! (You're jealous, I know.unless you're Odalys who is my suitemate that just informed me she wasn't jealous. tehe) The feeling of the spirit overwhelmed me there. Absolute beauty in everything. I always love the feeling that takes over whenever the spirit is present..it's greater than any feeling. The words that were spoken were amazing..I long for that ability to speak such empowering words. I always leave knowing I am a child of God. Those few words hit me so strong because it's true. I love it. Thomas S Monson // be a little better, a little kinder, show respect, extend our concern, try to do the right things, be a light to the world...Simple but SO GOOD. love love love love.

If someone knows where I can get these adorable plants please spill the beans. I want *heart eyes* *about to change subjects super quick*

I've learned to grow the love for being alone. Don't get me wrong I revel in other peoples company but being alone can be fun and in college it's totally OK if you're walking, sitting or heck even talking alone. I am perfectly content and satisfied with the smallest of things.

Beware, not in any sort of Halloween sense since it is October. But more of the fact that this post will be filled with random late night thoughts.

First ill start out with a few IPhone friendly picture I took this week for the fun of it.

Selfie. Because we all need a little selfies in our lives sometimes am I right?

A picture I took in my lovely small dorm bathroom

The two cute bracelets on my wrist are my absolute favorite..One from my mom

that I received on Christmas and the other..tbh i'm not really sure where I got it but it is adorable.

heheheheh. this is legit the lamest blog I hav EVER written. My B.

keep it real nuggs.

Mahalo