desi j: June 2014

Hello. My fingers freeze because as you know.. I forgot how to just let loose and type every word my mind comes up with.

It's been a month since corbin and I broke up but we still can't seem to stop talking to eachother. But YES! It's hard .. letting go of someone who was always there for you, someone you knew would answer the phone if you had night mares, late night FaceTime falling asleep to eachothers human noise , laughing at eachothers raw humor or just sitting looking into eachothers eyes not saying a word

It's been a month since I've..Tried to figure out myself. Who I am? Who I'm going to become. I'm starting school in fall. Not close to home.. *tears rush down face* and it seems to sink in more and more each day. I'm terrified but extremely excited. What are these feelings?! Someone please explain.

It's been a month.. And I've grown to know my God & savior more. They love me! Holy cow I've been so blessed in so many ways this month. When things seem to fall apart and you can't do anything or take control.. There will forever be a solution. Prayer! My heart is full of love. The Lord knows you. He knows your problems. He knows why you're sad& he knows why your upset so he works through his children on earth to help and comfort you. I lied in tears one night crying because I couldn't hold it in any longer , when I received a text from my aunt saying she suddenly had the impression to text me. We talked for the rest of the night. My heart was softened and I was comforted. I knew god worked through her to help me. I'm so blessed.

I've also been beyond stressed about college and the extreme amounts you must pay to go. I was placed on the waiting list for my apartments because we turned in the money too late , when just a couple of days ago I received an email notifying me that someone cancelled their room and if I paid, I'd get the spot! Everything is falling into place because I let God take over.

He will guide you! I KNOW it with all my heart.

It's also been a month since I've had my bed to myself. A sweet little miss (my sister) keeps jumping on the side of my bed to have a sleepover. More like she moved in. But she's off to girls camp tomorrow which means bed to myself!! I will definitely miss her company though. She'll have so much fun in the middle of the bahooonies building fires , singing songs and giving all her time to The Lord.

It's been a month since I've gone to bed at a decent time as well. On that note.. Sweet dream and lots of kisses.

Yours truly . Me Desi